I have not been on here for a while,
Maybe a good thing as life is moving on, im putting the pain and heartbreak behind me, work is just fab ,ive gained so much confidence and my abilites are growing daily, my patients are well looked after and i am a diff person now, cancer and losing ju brought me to my knees ,i saw no way out but i have proved thats not the case ,
Do not get me wrong i will always love ju, he is…
I as many of you know have been struggling a bit the last few weeks , but i feel like i am slowly feeling better , but i even suprised myself yesterday , i recieved a phonecall at work mon to say i had a shift in A&E yesterday ,normally we have to do a week of shadow shifts first but apparantly my work speaks for its self and they said they were just going to throw me in at the deep end , i was really chuffed and excited…
Just a quick note,
I have just lit a candle in memory of ju, but also all those we have sadly lost this year ,all of us left behind and those suffering but even though i had a few tears its a memory candle and smells just beautiful , its uplifting and calming apparantly , a bit like i try to be :)
I dont need to tell you what mac and my friends on it has done for me ! one friend in particular another young widow has…
Well its official im a miserable cow at the moment , i know i have good reason but i hate feeling like this and thought blogging might help ,
I was expecting it but i got a stroppy phonecall from a family member last night asking why i hadnt put ju,s name in a xmas card (we have had this before ,they want me to pretend to someone that ju is still with us ) well im sorry i cant do it , it just breaks my heart ,i would…
I have been dreading christmas but with the help and support from a very good friend and kids bugging me i have been getting on with it ,shoppings all done ,wrappings nearly all done , tree ordered ,decs bought i couldnt face using the old ones too many memories , all was going ok till today ,when i sat down to write christmas cards ive had to stop for a break as is just so painful and i cant stop crying and i havent…
