The sun is shining its a beautiful day ,im just hoping tommorow will be too ,
I woke up at stupid time again this morning , panicking as had so much to do , silly as i had all day, but no its all done, except got to bake the cookies i said i woudnt make !! and got lots of cakes to ice but my best friend is going to do that while i play with neve ,i get all the hard jobs :) and i have now listened to tam (tj1 ) who has…
I had an amazing day yesterday with my best friend and her lovely baby, who as from tommorow i will be her guardian :), i even got to take her out for an hour on my own ,which was big thing for mum ,but me and neve loved it , we had loads of cuddles ,smiles and play time, we spent the whole day together it was lovely, and mum was so glad she did it, as now shes over that hurdle when shes tired me and neve can go off and…
Well im back to my usual cheery self ,thank godness , its been a tough few weeks with lots of first's , but as usual me and the kids have got through it together , we are now so close its lovely ,
But i have realised im doing too much, im exausted, im loving organising this charity event but i need a break so we are going away monday for a few days ,just to a holiday park not far away so wont have a long drive …
Well i really dont know how im feeling atm, apart from very antisocial and lonely,
I got some bad news yesterday my step grandad ( i say step but has been my grandad since i was 12 ) , he is in hospital very poorly ,noone seems to know exactly whats going on , vaguely told tia,s which is strokes , he has had dementia for 2 years ,and all we been told is he is going into a hospice asap , their is no point me pushing…
Where do i start, im writing this as it helps to write things down ,
I think half my trouble is ,when friends and family say are you ok ,i reply of course i am ,yet my heart will be breaking ,they dont understand so whats the point in telling them , if honest i cant even remember the last time my family asked me , but on here i can be honest at least as i know people will understand and it does make such a differance…
