Just as i feel ive stopped crying another relative rings and i have to tell them we have had more bad news , cancer has spread to hubbys brain, and their is swelling , he has almost lost all speech , and he is so upset ,bless him and all i could do was hold him as he cried , i dont think ive ever felt so sad as i do now, dr has increased steroid to try and help with swelling, and is speaking to oncologist about radiotherapy…
well what a week, ups and downs, mostly downs to be honest, well yesterday was the final straw, my pregnant best friend and work collegue came for lunch bringing home made soup , lovely i thought really looking forward to a bit of me time ,well she arrived very upset, one of my so called friends and work collegue had told her my hubby only had 2 weeks to live !!!! well i hit the roof , how dare they discuss my business…
I always feel like im moaning on here, but i think we just having a really bad time at the moment , another really bad night ,we slept on sofa together till about 11.30, then went to bed but hubby is waking up every hour which i knew so will try sleeping tabs tonight, but what i didnt know is whats going round in his head which i could have guessed, but is fear , he admitted it to our macmillan nurse today,while i was…
Last few days have not been easy but a little more settled or so i thought , hubby so tired since incident at garden centre havent even tried to go out,
Left him to sleep in this morning which only made him feel worse, we cant win no matter what we do, dizziness and sickness slightly improved with new meds, but nothing to write home about, we were so hoping for a little respite and a bit more quality of life but i think…
i am like a different person now to what i was 6 months ago, i would spend all day sat, cleaning ,cooking, shopping and never stopping for a minutes peace , i was a whirlwind i never stopped, what was i missing ? a lovely lie in with lots of cuddles, breakfast in bed together, curling up on sofa togather all morning just doing crosswords and watching saturday kitchen , my idea of bliss, its just a shame it took cancer…
