i am like a different person now to what i was 6 months ago, i would spend all day sat, cleaning ,cooking, shopping and never stopping for a minutes peace , i was a whirlwind i never stopped, what was i missing ? a lovely lie in with lots of cuddles, breakfast in bed together, curling up on sofa togather all morning just doing crosswords and watching saturday kitchen , my idea of bliss, its just a shame it took cancer to make me appreciate what is important, not a spotless house but a loving family spending very precious time together, when their is so little time left ,
but i did have a few tears today ,not just as im feeling very low as got stinking cold, our memory boxes arrived by post so started doing them , and brought back so many happy and loving memories and yes hubby is still here at the moment but it was very emotional, god knows how i will cope when he is gone, i feel sick just thinking about it ,
i also have to go to work tommorow which i am dreading , but i wont let that ruin a nice family day to today , my house is clean and tidy and the kids will have a lovely meal with us later, but do i panic now if someone makes a mess, no i dont and sometimes i even suprise my self and dont bother to clean it up straight away ,
hubby is very tired today but apart from that the pain is ok, and he is eating so good day really, and as for me i have always known i was loved but i have never felt more loved or in love as i do now , and i will be eternally grateful for that , :) xx
