I always feel like im moaning on here, but i think we just having a really bad time at the moment , another really bad night ,we slept on sofa together till about 11.30, then went to bed but hubby is waking up every hour which i knew so will try sleeping tabs tonight, but what i didnt know is whats going round in his head which i could have guessed, but is fear , he admitted it to our macmillan nurse today,while i was their, he also said he had no quality of life which i also knew but was so hard hearing it , i dont know how i kept it together,anyway all meds doubled again , this is happening almost twice weekly now, but it never seems to help for long, also may be oxygen needed but will see gp tommorow, its so hard seeing hubby so depressed , i am normally so positive but when macmillan nurse left i just went upstairs and cried and cried, i couldnt stop , ive now given myself a headache and feel awful , and hubby now peacefully sleeping but he could tell id been crying, he just gave me a funny look and smiled ,well that started me off again , so i left to pick kids up , so i now have to try and pull myself together for the next time , i just want him to be comfortable , thats not too much to ask , and to all you ladies on here that have been supporting me, thankyou , i couldnt get through this without you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
