I have had such a lovely day with my little girl today. We spent the morning in the garden at our friends house with the paddling pool out. My daughter had an Easter party this afternoon to which my MIL and I took her. Then coz Mummy in law was with us she treated us to ice cream - yum yum
BUT..............I just don't know. I feel flat?! I feel like I am about to cry but don't know why. I just want to curl up in a ball…
Things have just seemed so sureal for the past 3 months. I haven't really felt anything! I put it down to having grieved for dad while he was ill, but today - bang on 3 months I just can't stop going over the day he died. I keep crying and wishing it had just been a bad dream. I want my dad back......................
well, the funeral went as well as these things can. It still doesn't seem real. Dad had some of the members of his motor cycle group follow behind the cars, was so touching but I just wished he'd been riding with them - so unfair. I find it hard to express how I am feeling but I wrote this poem for my dad and I thought I would share it with you........
Dad, to me you are not gone
I feel you with me, I will…
I haven't written since the day dad died. It seems like a life time ago but just yeaterday at the same time! Because of Christmas and New year, the funeral is not until Monday. I know everything that is going on because I am the one dealing with it but it still doesn't seem real! I went to see dad in the chapel of rest and did break down when I saw him but then I composed myself and went home, back to normality. I can…
I got another call at 6.05 this morning. I went straight round to dad's. The whole of my insides were shaking. I knew this was it. He was still breathing when I arrived. I said hello to him and held his hand but I don't think he was consious that I was there. I just hope he knew he wasn't alone!
After feeding him last night and getting a smile and a kiss from him, I could see today that dad's spirit had gone…
