I haven't written since the day dad died. It seems like a life time ago but just yeaterday at the same time! Because of Christmas and New year, the funeral is not until Monday. I know everything that is going on because I am the one dealing with it but it still doesn't seem real! I went to see dad in the chapel of rest and did break down when I saw him but then I composed myself and went home, back to normality. I can't understand how everything just carrys on. It's like nothing has happen. It's not right. i want the world to grieve with me!
I honestly don't know how to feel or what to do. I have to carry on as I have a 2 year old that depends on me. I go through the motions but it's like I'm on auto-piolet.
I am so tired but I don't seem to be able to cry. I am glad dad isn't suffering anymore but still can't believe he is gone. I am just so confused by the whole situation.
Dad wasn't meant to die at such a young age. I might be 28 but I still need my dad. just one more hug. Another chat.........................
He's never going to see his grandchildren grow up - how can that ever be fair????
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