no different from Monday, Saturday, etc. I am so fed up of being so sad. I am trying everything that the text books say to do. at the end of the day tho I am still on my own with no-one to talk to. i write to you in my book every day. why? you are not here to read it. i want peace and i want to think of you with a smile on my face but right now i am so angry with myself for not doing something to change how i am feeling…
Hi hun, been watching the world cup for you...must keep in touch for the boys so that I can talk to them about it. That was always your pleasure. I am so upset today again. I try so hard tokeep a brave face for everyone. I miss you so damn much. I miss your strong arms around me. I miss you saying that you love me. I cant see the keys on here to type for crying..hope you are ahppy if you are any where...I have such a…
I am so sad today. 10 months on today. How can I have lived thro the last 10 months? It all seems so unreal. What is happening? I miss you so much. Almost everything that I have heard or seen today, has reminded me of you. It is hurting so much today. i will be glad to get back to work tomorrow and fill my mind with rubbish so that I wont have to think so much,,,,,,I love you, honey. Our future has been taken away from…
Honey, I am missing you as always. I havebeen thinking of you so much lately, especially as it was your birthday. I have started to sort thro some of your clothes. This was so hard. You are disappearing from so much of my life. You are no longer on the bills, on the car insurance, telephone listing, etc. I really dont want to forget you. I am so scared that I will forget what you look like, what you smell like, how your…
I hate that you are not here to share these long nights. The gardens are underway are taking shape. Your shed is gone, honey. I am sorry but it was too big for me. I have a smaller one now. Our Clare and Chris are having another girl....a sister for Lana. You would adore Lana, John. She is so cute and would cover you in kisses.
I would give anything to be able to hug you and for you to hug me back. I miss you so much…
