no different from Monday, Saturday, etc. I am so fed up of being so sad. I am trying everything that the text books say to do. at the end of the day tho I am still on my own with no-one to talk to. i write to you in my book every day. why? you are not here to read it. i want peace and i want to think of you with a smile on my face but right now i am so angry with myself for not doing something to change how i am feeling. its like trying to pick up a house. impossible...i have been sat in a park in the car crying today wanting so much to have you here, tell me to snap out of it, hug me, tell me you love me...all of these things and more...aaaargh. why am i so stupid..!!!
is it just today. is it just this week. i really hope so, this time of year so reminds me of you. lawn mowers, tractors, golfers, football awards...and on and on. Life is just so unfair.
thats it now. had my rant. cup of tea is needed. wish i were asleep. wont be long. love you honey. love you lots. xxxxx
