Honey, I am missing you as always. I havebeen thinking of you so much lately, especially as it was your birthday. I have started to sort thro some of your clothes. This was so hard. You are disappearing from so much of my life. You are no longer on the bills, on the car insurance, telephone listing, etc. I really dont want to forget you. I am so scared that I will forget what you look like, what you smell like, how your eyes twinkled when you were enjoying yourself. I miss your strong arms around me. I miss your steadiness and comforting words. I miss you breathing in bed at night. I miss YOU. It is getting better but that frightens me too. Wish I was with you right now my darling. Goodnight John. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
