I hate that you are not here to share these long nights. The gardens are underway are taking shape. Your shed is gone, honey. I am sorry but it was too big for me. I have a smaller one now. Our Clare and Chris are having another girl....a sister for Lana. You would adore Lana, John. She is so cute and would cover you in kisses.
I would give anything to be able to hug you and for you to hug me back. I miss you so much, it still hurts. I hope wherever you are that you know that I love you and am trying so hard to make you proud of me. Be proud of our lovely kids, I am, they are being so brave.
Love you.xxx
