Hello my darling husband. I dont think I believe in the afterlife but just in case, I hope you can hear me. It will be 18 wks on Saturday since you had to go. It is so hard and I just cant see it getting any easier. There is just this empty space next to me everywhere I go. When I am work, and the phone rings, for a split second, I think that it may be you ringing in like you did. It is all so painful. I really dont know…
