Hi, hope you are doing well.
I recently was diagnosed with testicular cancer and I have had surgery to remove both testicles. My left had a tumour and my right never descended so it was stuck in my groin and was small and useless but posed a high risk of cancer. I have two fake ones put in so it has been nice to feel a full sack for the first time.
When I was diagnosed back in March it did not bother me at all. I went on with my days looking forward to getting surgery and putting this chapter behind me after my CT scans show no signs of spreading. I'm waiting to find out what type of cancer it was and if I need chemo and further treatment.
My surgery was two weeks ago and the first week of recovery was fine. Apart from the sores and pain I was in high spirits. However since a week ago I have been thoroughly miserable. I'm taking the T gel as prescribed so I don't think it is a low hormone mood swing but who knows. I just feel so tired and full of dread, lazy and useless like I am bothering everyone in my life. I can't shake the feeling that my life is over. I am aware these thoughts are silly and what I am going through is relatively minor compared to some but I can't help it.
