Hi. 5 weeks ago I found out that my Dad has pancreatic cancer which has spread to liver and lungs. He has a chest drain because of fluid on his lungs. I live in southern Spain. Obviously, I flew home straight away to see him and spent a week there but I work and have a family here so had to return.
My parents are divorced and my Dad's family are taking amazing care of him but I feel left out. When I call there is always a reason that I can't speak to him...he's asleep or he's had a bad day and is resting or he can't talk as his breathing is bad. I just want to say hi or video call him so he can see his granddaughters. They just say they'll keep me updated.
My Dad has been told there is nothing they can do and has been advised against chemo which he didn't want anyway. Other than that I haven't a clue what to expect, how long we have other than what I can google.
I'm in bits over here. I can't functionand feel I have no-one to talk to. Only just keeping it together for my family. I feel like I'm waiting for the dreaded phone call and it's torture.
