Hi I am diagnosed pancreatic stage 3.Not operable.1 week ago.had 3 days in hospital to have feed tube in my nose but doc decided not to do it.
I have chosen no chemo or radio therapy.so basically I am waiting to die.I am pragmatic as regards my future.I am very worried about my beautiful loving wife she is 70 and not really into the tech age ie banking etc. I feel guilty to abandon her as I am old school me man you woman type thing.
I cry in the morning when I wake up and the cold reality of it hits,I don't care if people think I am weak or wanting sympathy,I ain't weak in mind but my body's shattered I do try to keep clean and have found new joy in just how kind most other people are.my immediate physical problem is constipation i ain't been for9 days well 10 today,got loads of different laxatives.well thanks for listening regards to all I'll or not and May god bless you as he does me
