Fear and sadness

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I had a tumour removed from my spinal cord 7 weeks ago, I still can’t walk unaided, I was first diagnosed with NHL but now I have been told it’s myeloma, I am totally devastated I can not stop crying and thinking this is the end for me at 56. I have a wife and 4 grown up children my life was so good. I am not sure how to deal with this but I have been reading all the comments on this site and I now know I am not alone.

  • Hi TJ65,

    I am really sorry to read about your diagnosis and how you’re feeling at the moment. 7 weeks is still very early days and so you are bound to still be dealing with a huge amount of shock and grief. If you can, please try to see these emotions as temporary, they can’t and they won’t last forever. There are loads of stories out there of people who have lived a good life with myeloma for many, many years, and there is no reason why you cannot be one of them. 
    This is not to downplay how utterly terrible this all is, it is only to say that this is most definitely not the end. There are still lots of reasons for hope.

    Hope this helps in some small way,

    Greg

  • Thank you for your understanding and support, I do feel much better and more positive.