Hi
I am not sure whether I should post here, however looking for some support from people who have been in my shoes.
I noticed a mole that had changed on my left breast just before christmas. It has gone from a normal looking mole to one with distinct black marks running through it. I am a Nurse so immediately contacted my GP who referred me to hospital on the two week wait pathway. I was seen by a Nurse in dermatology 2 weeks ago who looked at the mole and requested a second opinion. The consultant had a look under the dermascope and spoke to the Nurse about what he could see (using medical jargon so I had absolutely no idea!) The only thing I could understand is that it looked 'chaotic' and he then said he would be 'very very concerned' if we did not remove it. Queue my panic!
I signed some paperwork for an excision and was advised I would be called back in within 4 weeks for removal and then biopsy results would be another 4 weeks. On the outside I am calm, coping, optimistic, however on the inside I just have this gut feeling that it is not going to be good news (I have been experiencing arm pit pain on the same side for quite some time and obviously I am linking the two).
I am not really sure what I am writing this for, perhaps someone to validate my anxiety about having to wait, not knowing what is going on! I feel like everyone around me is carrying on as normal but I just can't escape this constant overthinking!
Lots of love to everyone x
Thank you for remembering the 14th Anne1536 
I know I'll probably cry through the reflexology session on Monday as Jane who does it is so smart and intuitive she spots anything different with me!️
I know those demons hon and they could be the same ones I still get sometimes too. What do you watch on YouTube?
I watch wedding dresses being tried on in those shops(say yes to the dress); car crashes and as a nurse I love Dr pimple popper and the toe bro!
A diverse selection really but it's mindless and whiles away the hours...
This week I've been standing in for the boss in the charity shop as she's cruising round the Canary Islands! It's certainly been taking its toll on me and I know I've got to back off from doing too much. The boss is now making more money out of a "pyramid" type make-up selling business, it's taking all her time, the shop is hugely neglected and I hate seeing this so am trying to keep it going. Big mistake really.
Anyhow keep on trying to sleep when you can hon, I really hope your results come in soon and are clear too! Xxx
I watch....frugal queen in France and others like that, Mossy Bottom, Simon a bloke in the woods, barge living following a bit of a trend here lol!! I love 70's crime series too The Persuaders!!!!My sister who works for the NHS loves the Dr Pimple Popper etc I would probably pass out...or throw up. I also do like the wedding dress ones but prefer the USA ones. The last one of my girls is getting married next year so I have an extra incentive to watch now and practice my mumzilla! (Two step daughters and a daughter but I think of them all as mine).
Your caring side is showing! I know what you mean about the shop I wouldn't be able to bear it being neglected either. My career was retail management for a large supermarket when they did have managers and standards and people were able to progress so hard work was rewarded. A neglected shop would set me twitching! However you need to look after you but I know you know that. You need to be fighting fit for your treatment.
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Oooh Anne1536, your watching choices sound interesting, the frugal queen in France - what's that about?
I like the sound of Mossy Bottom and living on a barge has always been one of my dreams. Might take a look...
I do love the Atlanta wedding dress shop one, love the honesty of it and the banter! Can't bear David Emmanuel one ugh.
A wedding sounds lovely and it's great to have that to look forward to, have you got a hat ?! I've half brothers and step nieces etc but class them all as real ones, sharing blood is definitely not that important to me.
I forgot to sign off properly last time, sorry.
Yep here I am too......
Frugal Queen in France is about a British couple who retired early and live in Brittany. They live a frugal money saving lifestyle and share how they do it. Deffo check out Mossy Bottom from the beginning..young man who quit the rat race and moved to Southern Ireland...he has the most soothing voice and his videos have got better and better. Floating our boat from the beginning is another good watch maybe less so now though. As you can see I like frugal self sufficiency...we grow all our own fruit and veg. I do a lot of preserving.We keep bees hoping to get eight hives through the winter. Just did the no spend January challenge.
Me too on say yes to the dress and share your view on DE. No hat yet but I have "a look" in mind. I spend most of my time looking like a "bag lady" so anytime I dress up is an improvement lol!!! "She scrubs up well" springs to mind" !
I live in a small hamlet, very few pavements and no street lights near the coast in SW England (sound familiar?).
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Newbie 1992, I hope you got your wound sorted out with your GP hon and it's being treated. In this thread of conversation I feel I'm the lucky one not being in that awful place of waiting for results for the moment anyway. I really hope both of you- Anne1536 and you too Newbie 1992 get the results you want. Clear ones!
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Mmmm small hamlet, no street lights...could be in my county for sure. I'm surrounded by sea, some street lights, SW area too plus we have shiny things.
I've not started seeds yet but am building a small (hopefully windproof down here) polytunnel on my alottment. I'll have to stake it down with stones and metal bars. I love always having green leaves to eat all year round, my garlic is in and just poking out the ground, my lottie is my time out from real life, my sanctuary. I get fresh eggs and honey from the chickens and bees on the plot. As I'm up there nearly every day I too am dressed like a baglady most days. No spend January, means what it says I guess. No money on food? What replaces the toast and marmite for breakfast?!
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Good luck with the polytunnel on your allotment! I love being in mine when it's pouring down outside listening to the rain on the cover with a cup of coffee in hand...
You can't beat a fresh egg from a happy bird lovely golden yolks. Somebody once asked what colouring I added to my Victoria sponge as it was a lovely colour...none!! It's the eggs!
Yes no spend January is no buying anything not essential...no impulse buys. It can be adapted to whatever works for you so if you need dairy for example then that's ok. I use up all the food I have in the freezers and the pantry and allow a small budget for milk, butter etc. My husband makes all our bread so we buy flour in bulk from a mill (online) so toast is secure with marmalade (Seville oranges are a permitted spend as January is their time) or honey. Just a bit of fun really. We grow pumpkins and they are a staple through the Winter.
It's so simple and peaceful being surrounded by things you are growing isn't it? Although we sometimes feel we are feeding the wildlife of the county!!!! We have ninja blackbirds who get to the blueberries no matter what we do!!!
Many thanks for your good wishes to xx
