I'm having a really bad day. I found a squiggy lump by my scar last night. And am worried sick. My oncologist and his secretary dont work Friday and the surgery is closed. My head has been very fuzzy all day. I know the brain surgeon told me things would get worse before it got better but most days it does clear about 4 and today it hasn't.
I've pushed and pushed for when they will start immunotherapy but am just told it will be a Tues or Thursday. Despite everything I have done to get myself one point of contact I still only have the prostate cancer nurse to ring, and as she says she doesn't know much about kidney cancer and becsuse she's in Chesterfield she has no access to what is going on about my treatment in Sheffield.
I've spiralled down and down all day. A friend is going to try and take me out for a bit this evening and I'm trying to persuade myself to go. But I feel such a misery.
