Almost a week since l completed my radio therapy, its slow, its sore and christ its frustrating. So yesterday I had the feeling something was brewing, just after lunch ( tasty nutritious shake) I began to feel as if the lid was about to come off. I call it Fin E.
Anyone reading this that has anything to do with the Tornado aircraft will immediately know what I mean. For those who don't the Tornado GR1/4 has a fuel tank in the fin 440kg to be exact, when full you get a Fin F light on the refuel panel ie FULL when empty you get a Fin E light ie Empty.
So yesterday I started to drain the tank, and this morning I hit Fin E, with a vengeance. Dropped the car off at the garage and strolled home in the rain (how refreshing that was) . I walked through the door and bang Fin E, I was OK until I saw my Wife and then the flood gates burst (don't consider myself to be an emotional person) but I held my wife like it was my last. We both had a good shed, I think the last few months just peaked and today was Fin E day. Must admit I feel a bit more on the level now, the feeling of uselessness has passed a bit, ready to face the next few weeks I think.
I said to my Sister today, I look more and more like our Dad, which is good except I I look like my Dad when he'd had cancer ( throat) so not by best comparison, but that's life I guess.
So a bump on the path, not sure if anyone else has been here, but this is my story and my journey. I hope this helps someone on
their journey . None of us do this journey alone or can we. We draw from those around us being strong takes more than just the individual, I think I need to remember that.
My wonderful nurse put me onto this forum this week.
That’s so good of her. It would be even better if she pointed her patients here right from the start
Give her a huge thanks from all of us here.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
