Before after now

thanks clive d, i am so worried about my weight loss, unfortunately mine started unintentionally march this year, when mentioned to my breast oncologist at the time he brushed it off as radiotherapy after effects, then they gave me so fortified shakes, not even a camera to rule out cancer, when food kept feeling like it was stuck then thank god my gp put forward urgent referral for throat camera, and the rest is history, lost 3lb this week, but thats probably due to the stress at home at the moment, so concious of my weight, the mirror doesnt lie for sure, and i was tiny before all of this, currently looking at wilstshire farm foods as anything apart from the soups and the milkshakes, when eaten comes straight back up, hope that last picture was when you got to go away!  thank you

Yes this was this year while on holiday, sorry about the legs

listen don’t worry about the weight loss you will loose weight, just do what you can, I was naive when I had my treatment and didn’t realise how weight would impact me 

have you spoke to a dietitian, there are so many hi in protein products available nowadays, some supermarkets have dedicated sections. Aldi is a good one. 

thanks clive.d, yes under dietician, have soups and protein shakes, drinks all over the house, just so frustrating that i cant seem to manage soft and small amounts of normal food, without seeing them agin quite quickly!! after no appetite, so frustrating as starving.  lost more weight this week but do believe this is mainly down to stress at home, they werent wrong when they said there is no manual for this cancer, when i initially asked the surgeon compared to my masectomy surgery, how does this compare, he looked at me like i was a lunatic, then said this will be horrific compared to that, least he didnt sugar coat it, had heart and lung scan recently, and just had a call for to attend a pulmonary function test, so trying not to stress or read too much into that.

I think I too had a pulmonary function test.
I think you’ll find the reasoning for this is they collapse the lung while performing the rejoin ect the lungs don’t take well to being inactive, hence why most if not all people end up suffering with surgical pneumonia of some degree.

having recently having had cancer treatment I sure they want to make sure. And even if your not and i sure you will be there are other options / different procedures. 

w1cky, it makes me very sad to read about the change in your relationship, particularly at a time when support from family and friends is so valuable. I wonder how much your husband is struggling to come to terms with your diagnosis and, if he hasn't sought support himself, how motivated he might be to get counselling? 

Sending love,

Lorraine xxx

thank you all for the support, after the ct pre radiotherapy assessment scan this thursday, as i am at the hospital a while, before being picked up, will drop into the maggies centre, hoping radiotherapy will be an option, the lansoprazole seems to be doing zero, had a busy day (sorry to be graphic,) filling those amazon blue sick bags.  will see if another option/tablet type, i cant find anything to say exactly what acid reflux looks like, is it foamy? is it this horrible gloopy stuff, hopefully nurses will call back tomorrow after message left, as voice tone has changed,  and now seem to be talking with a lisp!! and throat is really sore, not to mention the awful constant back pain, yesterday was shivering for ages, couldnt get warm initially, dont know what the hell is going on, but yesterday was a better day as met up with some friends unexpectedly, Lorraine, will try when its all calmer to suggest maybe after i have checked out maggies, then he should.  seems a lot of anger on both sides, but currently i am not up to much, just drained.  v shaped pillow worked last night, didnt suddenly wake up choking, result, but did have an amazing dream that i ate 3 pitzas, dammit!!  always here to help if i can x

Acid reflux is like bile. The thick stuff, like mucus, is what my husband was getting when he was really struggling with his food getting 'stuck'. He said it was like his digestive system was going into overdrive to try to get the food down. The only option for him then was to be sick, sometimes by making himself so. He hasn't had it since his first chemo. 

I don't know if you meant to, but, you made me laugh when you said you'd dreamt you ate 3 pizzas

W️ishing you pizza-filled days at some point, when your treatment is underway xxx

thank you, think they are aiming for chemo/radiotherapy combo if ct scan shows ok to go ahead, will this treatment make any difference to my swallowing, puking issues, or is just if you have chemo only, desperate to get anything down without the pleasure of meeting it again, just did weekly shop online, least thats dropped to practically nothing, rather it not be for this reason.  is it just me, but i feel constantly and mentally unwell, and ive not started anything yet!! trying to play this down to the better half, but feel frustrated that i am freaking out, albeit trying to keep it low levels, and he seems to be cracking on, for the cancer patient i realise of course ignorance isnt bliss, its the different of having a crack at still being here, rather than ignoring things, but god its hard, i think coz we had a nice impromptu catch up with friends yesterday, just being able to talk about normal things and also about this new little arrival, it took my mind off not eating, being constantly in pain, and miserable, but today it was hard to keep up that front, and i think it confused him how i was struggling today.  trying to be strong for both of us, still keep things running here, not working currently, so trying not to worry about the finances, you manage right, but god its overwhelming, i tried to explain when i am keeping busy, as much as my body will let me, then i can switch the brain off a bit, minute i take a breath, it all starts over.  and the oncologist letter makes it very clear recovery is going to be tough, but new day tomorrow, just worried about the weight loss since they last saw me, and god i know stress is not helping, thank god for this forum with all its support and experiences, xx

Hi v1cky are you taking any anti-sickness medication, if not speak with your nurse specialist and ask if there’s anything they could recommend. 

one of the non specialist nurses gave me some, but due to seizures after my 3rd breast cancer chemo, not recomended that i take those, have asked my gp to change my acid reflux tablets as they are not doing jack, hopefully these will stop the wall paper episodes, thanks Clive.d