Tired and down

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Why do I feel so exhausted ?  I have not even started Chemo yet. Is this the cancer spread everywhere.  Feeling really down today . Just feel like I am disappearing down a black hole .   This diagnosis has floored me and I know we all feel that way .  I have had many tines over the past year when I thought about ways not to be here .  Been dealing with some very difficult and painful personal issues    Still not completely resolved have one big hurdle to get over at the beginning of November    Anyway is this all my fault for thinking such awful things ?  . Am I about to get my wish ? Do I even want another year of pain and suffering. Can’t see a future xx

  • So a picc line goes in your arm and across to your heart and stays in all the time .  The Canula is put in every time . My oncologist said that it is better with a pic line as it avoids any damage to the muscles if there was a spill or something like that . I am going to ask again about it xxx

  • Thanks for sharing . I think if I choose to do the chemo I will at least give the cold cap a try .  I’m in 2 minds about the picc line . Xx

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    Former Member in reply to Shaz52

    A cannula is just a needle in the back of your hand or arm similar to a blood transfusion. It's much easier and doesn't hurt.

    Suh.

  • Hi Harleybear, I think if you choose to do the chemo we will be starting at similar times, so will support each other through this and the wonderful people on the forum will support us and we can support them. I might give the cold cap a try xxxx

  • Thank you, how far are you in your treatment xxx

  • Hi Shaz , sounds like a plan. . Let me know when you get a date to start .  I just have to get through this MRI first , I can’t even go in a lift without panicking so the MRI is going to be a barrel of laughs xx

  • Hi nor me, I was prescribed something by my doctor to help me relax and breezed through  my mri. You can do this xxxx

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    Former Member in reply to Shaz52

    I started a week last Wednesday. They split it into 2 sessions which both counted as the first dose. Then this Wednesday they wouldn't do it because I'd been running to the loo all week.  So next Wednesday will be my 2nd session. Going on until 22nd December. 

    Then hopefully the op and who knows what next.

    I'm just waiting for results of a bone scan and liver scan I had on Friday and Monday. The consultant doesn't think theses have anything to do with cancer but just wanted to check.

    Suh

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    Former Member in reply to PenelopeJ57

    Hello    I'll be reply to the post by  shortly but wanted to say your message resonated so much and had to do this first as steam was coming out of my ears especially your m-i-l words and the implications heck that is unfair and with all the other crap going on with this unwanted journey for yourself and other ladies.   It looks like we had similar treatment.   Had a lightbulb moment as in the big C as its sometime known I thought no way a few choice expletives followed and from now on it will be little curly c and fight the b%%ger all the way!   My o/h loathes hospitals never visited on surgery day (was in overnight) and 90% of appts. was alone so added to the fighter spirit we have deep within.    I know you are waiting for your RT and personally speaking it was the 'easiest' to cope with the staff were great reassuring and the machines well its just me being a northern lass I gave 'em cute names in preparation.   Enough said I'll sign off now and make a builder's tea.   Hope your journey improves.   Msge me if you wish re the m-i-l issue many do get on  well with theirs and lovely support which is great, but for some like us and maybe others the sun shines always out of son's backsides ha-ha but it'd be good to share coping mechanisms if that helps.

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     Wishing you strength and lots more to cope with all you are going through.   In support  xx