Tired and down

Hello Claud , thanks for advice. Some things for me to think about.   Like you I worry and stress so much, each day that goes by without the treatment starting I imagine it all over my body .  At the same time dreading the treatment and not sure I have the strength to do it.  

how are you doing with your treatment xx

Hi it is hard, so is not epc now, or is the epc  the dcis.  Epc is a rare tumour but it is  encapsulated so rarely travels outside the breast. So just wondering how one min biopsy shows epc and now not xx

I don’t know what happened.   Apparently because it was a large tumour the consultant was concerned it was more than EPC .  They therefore took a deeper biopsy of the middle of the tumour which came back as TNBC.  I was devastated.  X

Hi I am not medically trained, but have they advised how large I sometimes feel they don't explain everything to us properly xxx

Yes the consultant said it was 45mm x 36mm. 

Harleybear

Keep talking, and try to bring peace to your mind...think of it this way. More we are stressing, it will make our body weaker so, by nursing your body back by de-stressing, you are telling your tumour You Are In Charge!!

Of course you fear everything, not just treatment etc. Take stock, many women here no matter how it goes are still doing great and taking small steps. Myself I cut out coffee since biopsy and so proud of myself. 

You need to dig deep for strength, think how you would get strength from, friends, nourishment, love in things you do. It's time to build your strategy to suit you.

Believe that women are resilient, that is why God made us carry babies! You got this...

If you can don't dwell how big or small tumour coz it is what it is....I really am sympathetic to how you feel. But take a step at a time, make priorities what u keep in your head. 

Sorry its such a low you're feeling...Trust it can get better

C x

Hi,  I'm also having chemo first. It is rubbish. I had first bout of chemo last week. They didn't give me any this week because i've had the runs all week and could be dehydrated. I've felt rubbish all week and don't know whether I'm for or going!

I've also decided to stop work. I need to concentrate 100% on me for the first time in my life, it's something we don't do enough as women. Don't get too down hearted remember we're all in this together and your care team will help if you explain how you feel. Please don't give up

Hi .

Read your message and thought I would reach out . My name is Penny/ Penelope , which ever is easier to say, and I am 57 . Diagnosed with cancer tumours in both breasts . So far I have had lumpectomy , clearance and sentinel node biopsy . The pain over the last 3 weeks has reached unbearable levels at times and is only subsiding now . Waiting for RT .

My point is pain is relentless and affects our emotions deeply. I also felt I should be “coping better” whatever the hell that’s supposed to look like. I also felt alone in feeling the way I did .Anger was a biggy for me . I have a senile demented mother ( was never a full shilling anyway ) and a nasty mother in law who is more interested in the SACRIFICES her son is supposedly making . ( very little)

Please feel free to message me on if you like it reply here . Whatever way the wind blows . 

pennyetheridge@btinternet.com

I get the big decisions issue on top of all the other bloody decisions .

Peace and love 

Penny 

Hello Harleybear,

I also have had these thoughts but together we will keep going.but

this wonderful site with these wonderful people are inspiring.

Take care

Hi Suh , sorry you feel rubbish too .  I am just debating when to stop work , my head is so full I am not really concentrating.  I can’t remember a time when I just focused on me . Even now with this diagnosis I am still helping family with their issues .  I have decided that after my MRI on Thursday I am going to go away for a night or 2 with my partner away from all the stresses to just talk things through and decide what I want to do .  I have tried to contact my BCN but didn’t get a reply and don’t want to bother them again .   I have so many questions and the longer I wait to start treatment the more my head runs away with me . 
I hope you soon feel better and can resume your treatment next week . Xx