Why do I feel so exhausted ? I have not even started Chemo yet. Is this the cancer spread everywhere. Feeling really down today . Just feel like I am disappearing down a black hole . This diagnosis has floored me and I know we all feel that way . I have had many tines over the past year when I thought about ways not to be here . Been dealing with some very difficult and painful personal issues Still not completely resolved have one big hurdle to get over at the beginning of November Anyway is this all my fault for thinking such awful things ? . Am I about to get my wish ? Do I even want another year of pain and suffering. Can’t see a future xx
Well done, how long us your treatment for. You can and will do this xx
So glad it went well . And brilliant that you didn’t cry . Did they say anything about hair loss and cold cap use ? Xx
Yes they asked about cold cap I said no don't think I will . They said to cut my hair it might help , I will do that going to donate it I think. But won't cut to to the scalp I would go hate that. Cold cap puts such a long time on the day and im not convinced they work that well and I would hate to have patchy thinning hair which may make wearing a wig more difficult. I know I didn't cry I'm getting better . Sighed up to have a medical student follow my progress , I'm a health lecturer so I think they thought how can she refuse? And I'm fine with it. Got to have 4 cycle's of EC chemo it's an old drug been around for years they told me . And I'm having chemotherapy as my Oncotype score was so high at 38 . Again I asked have I got cancer now? No they said this is prevention . So that's it flu jab at 3 20 this afternoon at GP . Got my anti sickness medicine and my shot of something I have to give to myself after each Chemo .
That's it really
Jayne
That's really interesting. I think a lot of people don't realise that chemo can be used as preventative treatment after surgery as well as before surgery. I had a phone call from my G.P. this morning, as wanted to speak to me, but not urgently.
That all sounds really positive . Belt and braces with the chemo then . Will it be finished by Xmas? If so you will owe yourself a huge celebration xxx
Hey that’s always really worrying when a doctor rings. If you are like me my head goes to the worst place every time . On the other hand it could be great news xx
Thinking of you tomorrow you will do this, keep posting and we will help you xxx
Yes. Definitely will be thinking of you. Busy day for you tomorrow - hope you get on OK and let us know how you are.
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