Tired and down

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Why do I feel so exhausted ?  I have not even started Chemo yet. Is this the cancer spread everywhere.  Feeling really down today . Just feel like I am disappearing down a black hole .   This diagnosis has floored me and I know we all feel that way .  I have had many tines over the past year when I thought about ways not to be here .  Been dealing with some very difficult and painful personal issues    Still not completely resolved have one big hurdle to get over at the beginning of November    Anyway is this all my fault for thinking such awful things ?  . Am I about to get my wish ? Do I even want another year of pain and suffering. Can’t see a future xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Shaz52

    Just got back from the hospital had my bloods done weight and signed concent forms . Picked up my sickness medicine . It looks like it's going to be a go on Thursday !  Jayne X. Ps I did not cry at the hospital , that's a first for me lol x 

    Jayne X 

  • Well done, how long us your treatment for. You can and will do this xx

  • So glad it went well . And brilliant that you didn’t cry .  Did they say anything about hair loss and cold cap use ? Xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Harleybear

    Yes they asked about cold cap I said no don't think I will . They said to cut my hair it might help , I will do that going to donate it I think. But won't cut to to the scalp I would go hate that.  Cold cap puts such a long time on the day and im not convinced they work that well and I would hate to have patchy thinning hair which may make wearing a wig  more difficult. I know I didn't cry I'm getting better   . Sighed up to have a medical student follow my progress , I'm a health lecturer so I think they thought how can she refuse?  And I'm fine with it.  Got to have 4 cycle's of EC chemo it's an old drug been around for years they told me .  And I'm having chemotherapy as my Oncotype score was so high at 38 . Again I asked have I got cancer now? No they said this is prevention . So that's it flu jab at 3 20 this afternoon at GP . Got my anti sickness medicine and my shot of something I have to give to myself after each Chemo . 

    That's  it really 

    Jayne 

  • That's really interesting. I think a lot of people don't realise that chemo can be used as preventative treatment after surgery as well as before surgery. I had a phone call from my G.P. this morning, as wanted to speak to me, but not urgently.

  • That all sounds really positive . Belt and braces with the chemo then .  Will it be finished by Xmas? If so you will owe yourself a huge celebration xxx

  • Hey that’s always really worrying when a doctor rings.  If you are like me my head goes to the worst  place every time .  On the other hand it could be great news xx

  • Thinking of you tomorrow  you will do this, keep posting and we will help you xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Shaz52

    Thankyou Shaz 

    You all mean the world to me X 

  • Yes. Definitely will be thinking of you. Busy day for you tomorrow - hope you get on OK and let us know how you are.