Tired and down

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Why do I feel so exhausted ?  I have not even started Chemo yet. Is this the cancer spread everywhere.  Feeling really down today . Just feel like I am disappearing down a black hole .   This diagnosis has floored me and I know we all feel that way .  I have had many tines over the past year when I thought about ways not to be here .  Been dealing with some very difficult and painful personal issues    Still not completely resolved have one big hurdle to get over at the beginning of November    Anyway is this all my fault for thinking such awful things ?  . Am I about to get my wish ? Do I even want another year of pain and suffering. Can’t see a future xx

  • We wil, all be here for you Jayne. X

  • Love this , great fighting talk. You go girl xxx

  • I had cancer in both breasts to . It’s unusual for both so I was told . Having my RT planning tomorrow . Bit nervous but hey ho . Surgery was first step , wasn’t it ? 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Harleybear

    Yes ha let's hope I can keep it up ! X 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I just deleted my own comment ! Goodness I'm not drunk I promise 

  • You will, nothing can stop you now. Go girl xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to PenelopeJ57

    Yes two cancers both primary . They did say they are seeing more and more of it . But they weren't really bothered . Maybe to not scare me   . Surgery first 

    Jayne 

  • Oh right , my surgeon said it was unusual  but like you both were primary .. have you not had your surgery yet ? Mine was 3 weeks ago and tomorrow is my RT planning meeting at Guys . Quite nervous as unsure how I will cope with RT . Still feeling quite sore and had to have a drain on left side last week ( which didn’t hurt at all ) . 
    It’s all up and down anyway isint it ?

    Normally I’m pretty upbeat or at least try to be but my partner has come home from work late from the pub behaving like a twat which I really don’t need so probably why I’m feeling a bit low right now!

    Hey ! Tomorrow’s another day right 

    Peace

    Penelope  

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to PenelopeJ57

    Hi Penelope 

    Yes had bilateral mastectomy 2)8)21 pre chemotherapy checks this morning in 30 mins . I'm still home just getting my mind in the right place. Yes they did say they are seeing more and more women with primary tumors in both breasts. It's all up and down I hope I don't start to cry over the clinic in doing that a lot at the moment ,  I'm not embarrassed about it when I cry but just want to stop getting emotional. Im down for Chemo on Thursday as you already know , the day when I finally meet my new best friend EC  chemo!  Yes today is another day one day nearer to this all going away X 

    Take care 

    Jayne x

  • We are all here, how long will you be having chemo, are you having herceptin also xxx