Why do I feel so exhausted ? I have not even started Chemo yet. Is this the cancer spread everywhere. Feeling really down today . Just feel like I am disappearing down a black hole . This diagnosis has floored me and I know we all feel that way . I have had many tines over the past year when I thought about ways not to be here . Been dealing with some very difficult and painful personal issues Still not completely resolved have one big hurdle to get over at the beginning of November Anyway is this all my fault for thinking such awful things ? . Am I about to get my wish ? Do I even want another year of pain and suffering. Can’t see a future xx
