Hi everyone,
I feel like it's wrong that I'm pretending like nothing is happening/about to happen right now... It's definitely an 'ignorance is bliss' situation going on in my head at the moment.
I have my picc line being installed tomorrow and an injection for drug induced menopause before I have my very first chemotherapy session on Tuesday. If I pretend it's not happening, I'm kind of ok. If I think about it (even writing this) I just cry. Am I the only one?
I'm usually the one who likes to know everything, but I'm literally ignoring every leaflet and avoiding Google like the plague. I've relied on my loved ones to read them and tell me the bits that matter if I ask, as if I read it, I think it will all be too much and too real... I'm really upset this is the way I'm approaching it right now but can't seem to find another way that doesn't include constant upset.
I guess it's because I'm scared? Sending love to everyone about to start their journey like me x
