It seems I'm a patient now!

I had a very tearful night, in spite of the gentle sleepy breathing of Henry beside me, and a bad spot of sleeplessness in the night as well. Ah well, grief is like this.

Hugs xxx

Sorry to hear of your night but yes grief comes in waves and always best to let it out. Hopefully you can have lots of loving hugs with Henry pup today. The photo of him with your son is adorable and yes sniffing can be so exhausting!!!! My Coco can sniff intently on even the shortest of walks and then need to sleep for hours . Super tight cuddles for you today xxxx

You’re so right, Santababy! Waves is exactly what it’s doing, this morning too 

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Oh dear Moomy . The night wake is the hardest time . It’s when our thoughts over run and often out of control .

It is time and only time that will and can heal the raw pain of grief. 
I offer no solutions but a suggestion. When you are awake at night and thoughts race in politely ask them to form an orderly queue.It’s a little coping technique I use which helps .

Oh it’s a tiptoe and a time .

Peace and love

Penelope xx 

Morning moomy, love the photos of Henry pup, he’s a real cutie. And somehow they know when we need a doggy hug, glad you have him with you at the moment. Sorry you’ve had a tearful night but not at all surprising, however well you prepare for a loved one’s death, it’s still a shock and the loss is just as huge. And as you’ve said it’s a weird sort of limbo when you’re building up to the funeral. Please make sure you have support afterwards as that’s also another stage in the whole grief process, adjusting to your new life. Glad you have your lovely family around too but as you say they’ve got their own struggles with dealing with their loss. Sending love and hugs to you all, HFxxxx

Sending hugs moomy xxx

Finished all the legal ‘stuff’ today and have taxed both vehicles for 6 months successfully. Insurance transferred easily on the motor caravan, taking a day or two on the Landy. 

now I’m crying again, partly with relief that it’s all in order, but also hugely missing hubs’ presence today. I’ve got a wee Henry cuddling close beside me, looking up and giving my hand a kiss as he can see I’m upset. 

We think the funeral is all ready too. 

Daughter has a concert tonight and is feeling nervous so we’ve been bolstering her by text…..

Hugs xxx

moomy

Filled out hubs’ work pension details (I’m eligible for half the amount he got) that are wanted, and sent forms complete with birth and marriage certificates by recorded delivery, another 2 miles walked to and from our only post office in our town, son came with me. 

Daughter arrived back from her concert and slept till around 10.30-11 (I was having my hair trimmed so son was the only person who was home) when she came in, Henry-pup duly went mad with delight! But apparently he also missed me! So she’s gone home with Henry. We spent an hour all together and talked about what needs doing. She feels she hasn’t pulled her weight with all the arrangements, but she’s a whizz-kid with eBay etc (hubs was a hoarder!) and will also help me lots when selling vehicles and getting just what I want, a short wheelbase but high top motor caravan. She’s got several ideas as to what makes to look at already. 

Hugs xxx

Everyone finds their role at times like this so I’m sure she will be an immense help when it comes to finding new homes for things and of course she has already been an emotional help to you all along. I hope her concert went well and she was pleased. Love and hugs Anne xx