The operation

Ladies 

I recon these things happen for a reason, Dont you think . In the grand scheme of things wats important , yes ur follow up appiontments , meds , in treatmeant it all has to be done. 

As for bcn NOT foning back and posponement of appiontments oooohh that gets me, as its out of are controll. 

In the grand scheme of things i try not to let these things get me down as its gona be wat it is nowt going to be changed eh 

 In the grand scheme of things LL is galloping all over london !!!!!!!! That has cheered me up no end. Wer all ok ish are families are well . Christmas is on its way . 

I looked arond the other day and im so humbled by the riches i have , a nice lad a gud partner who are both a pain in the aristotle , and my Roland. 

Its wat u make it , and us reprabates are doin well. 

Iv a picture of LL in my mind and its just makin me laugh

Hope you all get sum quality kip. 

Hi ladies, quiet on here tonight you must all be snoozing. 

LL hope you had a fantastic day galloping and haven’t done too much of it. 

JG yep it’s a pain but this whole thing is an even bigger one, I’m just thinking what’s another week in the scheme of things. 

I would definitely be chasing up for some results, surely they can’t just leave things the way they are for you. 

Jammy I hope all is good with you and it’s a blow that you may need to wait longer for your results but you’ve got so much to do building up to xmas that time will fly by. 

Simba I hope your appointment went well today. 

Ali how did your appointment go regarding starting your chemo next week?

mrsox you make me smile, like you I look around and am so grateful that I have my wonderful family supporting me through this. 

I hope I haven’t forgotten anyone. 

Sweet dreams ladies xxxxxxx

Hi Jackie

Well yes I was snoozing but my hubby and brother-in-law just back in from a concert and woken me up clattering around...they apparently only has 1 drink, hate to see what they'd be like after more lol!

So awake now with breast cancer on my mind!  Am ok though had lovely day a friend came to visit then went to Xmas fair at Libbys school. Both her teachers and head teacher came to ask how I was and said Libby had been doing brilliantly at school and no signs of her being worried or upset at all. Spent a fortune on random Xmas things and tombola but was great to be out and about.

Having felt lucky to be able to get bra on immediately after the op I'm now paying price for wearing it day and night got nasty eczema under boob where its been getting hot and rubbing in the night. So gone bra-less this eve to get some air to. It will clear overnight I'm sure so got a pillow supporting boob instead tonight. So glamorous! 

Ali and Simba - like Jackie says hope your appts went well.

Leo - hope you had a fantastic day and look forward to hearing about it. Make sure you rest up tmrw though you are bound to be tired after the concert going (and galloping!)

JG- hope you had a good day lovely.

Anybody doing anything nice tmrw? I've just got school runs and time on my own at home whilst Libby at school.  So going to try and be good and rest a bit and maybe have a walk to visit my friend who's recovering from a hysterectomy.

Sleep well   xxc

Mmmm they always say that!!

I hate it if I wake up in the night as that’s when I think far too much as well. 

I couldn’t sleep in my bra after the first week, just so uncomfortable and sore under my arm. I’m still walking around with my dressing gown belt tied tightly under my boobs for support, not a pleasant site but it works. 

I’ve got the doctors in the morning as my blood test came back with a problem, ive got an under active thyroid so nothing to worry about, probably just a change of dose. 

My plan is to actually start the wrapping, not sure how far I will get as it’s my least favourite job.  

Night night xxxx

crikey you lot are all night owls again

This is my vision of LL galloping down the aisles

Jammy a pillow at night is my new best, or should that be breast, friend.

Jacks I'm tackling the wrapping today too, did a few 'odd' jobs yesterday around house and at shops so ended up not doing it as I probably did too much in the end. For a right handed person I sure do a lot of day to day tasks with my left hand by preference. oh well at least I can see out of my car windscreen now as the inside of it was filthy!

Hope the Drs appoint goes ok for your bloods

So for me today it's wrapping, a friend is meant to be popping round for a coffee at some point too. Waiting to see if the postman brings any letters, I'm thinking not, which in some ways are a good thing, however I just want a confirmed yes or no really so I know where I stand, so if nowt arrives I'll get in touch with BCN on Monday as that will be just over the 2 weeks.

I guess I should go and get the wrapping started otherwise it'll be end of school time again and it'll be too late as the kids will be here. lol

hope everyone has a good day, i'll be popping back in here later to break up the wrapping!

Hahahahaha!! Just needs a bit more thigh slapping me thinks :-)

No probs with the bloods just need to change the dose as expected. 

I promised myself I would be starting the wrapping today but it’s slipped off my list somewhere. I need to get some help to do it lol, I can watch and direct whilst my other half does it. To be honest he does it better than me but takes a lot longer, I start off well and then start slapping bits of tape all over the place. 

I understand fully that you need to know one way or the other as to if you may need any further treatment, personally I think it’s unacceptable. It’s bad enough counting down the days to an actual appointment let alone not knowing if you’re going to even get one. 

I hope you are all having a good day today ladies. 

Xxxxxxx

I have actually started tge wrapping about half way through, did stick on a movie to watch at the same time, but it's time for lunch so no idea if I'll get back to it afterwards i may have lost the will to live by then.

Nothing in the post today...........

Jolly - still can't believe you are in this position of waiting and wondering just doesn't seem right. No news will doubtless mean good news but be brilliant for you to have that in writing so you can move forward rather than the situation you are in.

No post for me either so still no confirmation on  when my results appt is which is rubbish as I'm 8 days post op now. Going to give it until Monday then ring BCN . Still hoping they will see me on 15th as she originally indicated buy want to make plans for Xmas run up so if it has to be the following week could do to know. I have a very strong feeling I'll  need node clearance and chemo which would be pants but if I do sooner they get on with things the better.

Did big clean and tidy up downstairs earlier as was feeling a bit teary so needed to distract myself. Just had a lovely 30 min nap so all refreshed to visit my friend now and collect Miss Libby from school I always feel so much better when she is with me...although gotta tackle homework/spellings etc this aft so won't be saying that in couple of hours!!!

Take care everyone xxx

Waiting is seriously the biggest pain in the butt ever!!!

I’ve just got to the point now where I think that I can’t change anything, the results are the results whenever I get them. 

I know that it is so tough for all of us and I’m certainly not the most patient of people but somehow I think I’m just not prepared to let cancer control me in this way. 

Sorry if that was a bit deep but I let not getting my results get to me last night but this afternoon I’m back and raring to go........not enough to do the wrapping though lol. 

Well done JG at least you’ve made a start, mine are all in carrier bags still. 

Jammy I really feel for you and no amount of saying don’t worry helps, I for one know that. Just try and keep that lovely bubbly personality going and focus daily on good stuff that’s going on. 

Sending hugs to you both xxxx

PS I hope LL is ok, we haven’t heard from her for a couple of days have we xxxx

Waiting is the pits as it's the unknowing that gets to me, whether it is good or bad news i want to know exactly why it is what it is, for me at least knowledge is power, even if that's just to know that it's just a case now of annual reviews unless any thing changes in the interim, and if it was bad news then i can deal with that accordingly.

Rant over, had just been having same conversation with my friend whilst she tidied up my leg pastures! The legmower can be put away for winter now. 

Got my wrapping done, except for the 3 big presents. Not sure if i can man handle them in and out of their hiding place, oh and waiting for 2 to arrive so obvs still have them to do. 

Well my friend never showed up either, if it had been last week it would have prob tipped me over the edge as last week was a long boring one, at least i had plenty to occupy me today.

Perhaps LL has been doing too much galloping, but hope she's not over done things with having the lousy lurgy et al.

Have good evenings everyone, make the most of the people around you to distract from waiting for results, worrying about what's still to come etc,  think we all deserve a night off from the joys of life with cancer, so i hereby declare tonight 'tune out thursady'