AWAKE.........

Hi,LondonLass....slept deeply and soundly from 1am,but then at 06:30 ,both my sisters replied to my email which I sent them last night..oh I have just received your most recent post,see you are struggling...poor LondonLass..will it ever end?(this sleeplessness)I am sure you have sen your GP about it?I will pm you...

so am awake and having a cuppa.,thankyou.

hope you

Managed a bit of a sleep too?

sorry you haven’t been very well,

my sisters’hubby is undergo8ng the new treatment for his skin cancer (which has spread internally)and he is suffering side effects at the moment so is back in Hospital.

oh dear and there I was blethering on to them last night about my new gorgeous cutains.

i swear I go into denial when somebody I love is ill.I was exactly the same when my Mum had lung cancer.Feeling a bit guilty,hope she will understand...I love my sisters so much 

xxxxx

I saw earlier it was very quite, i hope too it was a very good sign that everyone was sleeping. Sleep is our natural healer. I am so exhausted but woke up very glittery with my chest so just waiting for it to calm down and relax then i am going to try abit more sleep if nothing else rest,had a very weird dream and i was obviously very restless too, the way I slept. Oh well better try abit more sleep, it’s another very long day got my support group this morning then i am meeting up with a friend later. Plus have to get all my paperwork in some form of order to go with me tomorrow to see my welfare officer to fill out my pip form, i am not looking forward to the assessment as the last one i cant remember and my Mum told me the assessor was pretty horrible with me and kept asking the same questions in different ways. ddefinitely  don't need the stress but have been told i need to re apply because my circumstances have changed, at the moment too much change. Its a day i feel like saying “cancer sucks it’s taken away myself “ i have to get used to the new me, the one that cant handle things the same, or cope the same. I still at least have my stubbornness determination which at the moment I am so very grateful of, its keeping me going as strong as possible. Plus my friends given me a lift from time to time. I dreamt about my friend and I was having a conversation about something but can’t remember i hope to fall back sleep again and finish the conversation but you rarely fall back sleep to the same dream but it can happen.

Morning all, so sorry you are having a tough time LondonLass, we don’t care how much you rant or moan, we are all here for you, just as you are here for us.

Sending you a hug and to anyone else who needs one.

sorry you have been unwell , hope you feel better soon.

good luck tomorrow GBear

hope everyone has the best day they can.

Thanks for the hug. Much appreciated xxx

Bloody lack of sleep. Can't be doing any of us any good. Fitbit says I was asleep, but I am so exhausted I feel like I've not slept for weeks. I do try to avoid screen time during the night though, and stick to books. And tea.

Marmalade's ultrasound shows that there might be something wrong with his kidneys. Awaiting blood results (tomorrow) and a second opinion on the scan. Poor guy has a shaved belly and stinks of antiseptic. Which means Kahlua is growling at him. They couldn't get a urine sample, because he just dribbles it out all the time. I did warn them, and still one of the nurses had to go and change!!

I just don't know what to do. It's hardly fair on him. Where do I draw the line?

It's raining in my heart.

Let's hope something shows up on the bloods.

xx

Oh dear toxophilite, it is so hard when our pets are sick, they can’t tell us how they feel, and we feel helpless at what to do. You want to do the right thing but whatever yo do is going to be hard.sending you hugs.

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Oh Karen, so sorry to hear your marmalade is so very poorly. Hopefully it’s something they can sort out easily without too much trauma but its not sounding very optimistic, but we can all hope. 

GET WELL SOON MARMALADE! 

Big hugs LondonLass, sorry you are feeling so crsp, but mosn as much as you beed to xxxx

Good luck with the pip fitms GBear xxx