Bad news

Hi Coojee,

How are you? Did you have any more chats with your oncologist? More chemio? 

All the best.

Marco

I got an email reply from my oncologist. He is hard to contact. It looks as though chemo is the only option to prolong my life. No cure.

I had 2 nights pain free from my hip, but the pain is back again. My gp is trying to find mess that will help. I can't take codiene. When to bed 5 am last night, tonight looks the same.

Hi Coojee. Have they given you an idea of what chemo? I did Gem/Cis which I didn't find too bad. We know you have recently moved to the highlands. Have you experienced the winters there yet? Looks magical from afar, but maybe not very practical once the snow comes down. Best wishes.

Winters are lovely. Very pretty. I've yet to be snowed in. I had gem/cis last year &  it wiped me out. This time it will be gemcitabine &  carboplatin as the latter is better for kidneys. I am trying to get the oncologist to agree 50% dose  with gem cis I was passing out &  had superficial varicous veins. I don't really want to be like that if it's my last few months.

Hi Coojee, it sounds glorious. I can see why you settled there. I've only done wild swimming once, in a flooded gravel pit off the river Ouse in north Bedfordshire, but it was an amazing feeling. I'd have a bit more confidence now I think as i manage 40 lengths in the pool most weeks without too much trouble and I could only just swim back then. Sorry to hear tonight the hip pain is keeping you up again.

Denby

The go has prescribed some slow release pain pills. I will try them tomorrow. Its 4:30am & I'm up in my chair with my lovely puss at on my lap. She looks after me.

I hope your treatment is not going to be too hard. Keep the hopes high! These treatments have been known to sometimes shrink the growths enough for you to have more time and less pain. I do really hope the chemo will work. Let us know!

And yes... family is the only thing that gives you comfort.  For me it has been wife and daughter but also my 3 dogs... just concentrate on them and stay in the moment. The present is all we've got... 

Hi Coojee,Cats are so therapeutic.The second cat we had Wilbur used to escort my mother up and down stairs and to the bathroom and back.When he died we were amazed to find that our remaining cat Daisy took over his role.I hope that your hip pain has eased and that you have managed to get a bit of sleep.Love Jane x

Hi

Just gutted to hear your news. You've always been a positive light.