Bad news

Oh Coojee. Sorry to hear your news. It must be difficult for you to take things in at the moment. I hope they can come up with a new plan for you. Best wishes.

I’m so very sorry to hear your news Coojee.Thinking of you both.Love and best wishes Jane x

After all you have gone through so far, I am sad to hear that news. Thinking of you both.

Oh Coojee. Just sending hugs, and prayers for calm for you and your wife as you begin to deal with this.

Denby

God bless u so so sorry to here of this 

If u want to talk about it please do take care xxx

Thank you all for your replies. It really does help.

It's proving very hard to have a positive outlook at the moment, everything seems so bleak. My wife refuses to prepare for the worst. I have to decide when to close my computer business down. I now can't ignore little pains around my body now that I know what they are. I don't sleep at night because of my hip pain, but seem to be able to sleep after about 6am when the pain eases. Yesterday, I sent an email to my oncologist asking questions about treatment options. I've not had any reply yet. Things are not good.

I'ver decided to try to be more positive. It's so easy to sink into a depression, but I don't want my wife to remember me as a scared mess. So I'm making a big effort saying to myself "I'm a survivor" any time my thoughts sink down. It's a lonely thing, this cancer. But my wife is the most important to me. Today we start a 2 day fast. Apart from my coffee & porridge for breakfast, the rest of the time it will be fruit & water. We're tryign to starve out the cancer cells.

Thinking of you both.I hope you hear from your oncologist soon.Love Jane x

Good to feel you're taking positive action. But important to prepare for the future too, as well as making the most of every moment as best you can. I know you are in a quite remote location, but I wonder if there are any support services who could phone or visit?

The nurse at the go suggested contacting hospice. But I'm not sure what is it I need from these services at the moment. Perhaps near the end, but at the moment,  I don't know what to ask for. Plus if I did ask, its admitting defeat.