Light at the end of a very dark tunnel

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Hi everyone sorry not been on for a week or so my sense of humour left me for a couple of days. But it’s back!!! I’m 12 days post treatment and I must be turning a corner because these 4 walls of my bedroom are feeling cell like, I’ve watched soo much shite on the tv and read 2 books and exhausted every video on fb!!! I feel ready to leave this room and venture to just outside my front door ( prob breathe a bit if fresh air then come back in again) as I still have no interest in my appearance. I have also been navigating the benefits system ( OMFG) you need a degree!!! Think I’ve got there but won’t know for about 3/4 weeks yet. Oh I did finally pluck you’ll be pleased to hear. My blisters are drying out a bit now ( which is a different pain altogether) so I have come up with an ingenious idea, puppy training pads lathered in Zerooveen, stops the dry skin and stops any mess on my bedding ( as I’ve been commando for well over 3 weeks). I even had a little tipple on sat night whilst sat on my puppy pad watching BGT and ringing a bell for my top up. Looking forward to be able to look back on this and say WE DID IT!!! And we have. Good luck everyone xxxx

  • Well done Maljay and long may your improvement continue. Good to know your sense of humour eg puppy pads has stayed with you.

    I am a newbie and in fact this is the first post read and replied to

  • Ohhhh thank you widewire, are you just starting or midway or finished? Heavy check markI have founf some brilliant tips on here and it helped me to realise the road I had ahead of me, and I didn’t feel that I couldn’t be myself as everyone is going through the same thing so I didn’t feel embarrassed. Wherever you’re up to with diagnosis or treatment you can always have a chat or ask questions on here. So thank you for reading and even more thank you for replying and I wish you all the best xx

  • I am recently diagnosed with 2 cancers in my throat. Chemo and radiotherapy starts next month after feeding tube is in place.

    I am still in the letting people know/sorting my finances and living accommodation out / drinking too much stage

    Thanks for being my first community buddie

  • Hi Maljay 

    Glad you've got your sense of humour back and are making progress. You will get there. Xx

  • Hi Widewire

    Sorry about your diagnosis, but welcome to the forum. Sending hugs. Xx

  • You are very welcome, and if you struggle with anything let the macmillan team know and they will help you wherever they can, and the too much drinking stage is quite relatable but when treatment starts it will definitely wear off, just try to take one day at a time and be nice to yourself xx

  • Cheers Bungle and I definitely will xxxx

  • Yay.. so glad to read this post...

    I was thinking of you when I plucked my chin and tash on Saturday..I was hoping you where feeling up to it also.. makes us feel almost human again..

    I know what you mean about the healing..its gone from one pain to another type of itchy irritating pain..im 18 days post treatment..

    I've actually worn some panties for a few hours yesterday and today..so baby steps..

    I'm going to try a glass of wine maybe at weekend..how did you feel afterwards?  Good I hope..

    As for watching crap tv..I've watched 10 season of benidorm!!!!! Wtf!! Ha

    And lots of books..im going from murder mystery to romance...

    I think my next hurdle will be the dilators .. im really not looking forward to that.. but going to wait a few more weeks until I'm healed ..

    Great reading your posts x

    Squeak

  • Hello Maljay

    You sound SO much brighter and motivation to leave your bedroom is a sure sign that you have turned a corner.  It can be really a tough regimen but hopefully things will now get better and better.  And don't overdo it either, your body needs lost of rest and recuperation.

    Puppy pads and a drink - what a brilliant idea!   

    Gentle healing hug

    Irene xx

  • Hi Squeak, I’m so glad you plucked too!!! And I’ve not had the courage to wear underwear yet as that will be my next hurdle. As for the drink I totally went overboard as per and yep the room was spinning when I finally lay down but I slept all night long ( something I’ve not done in ages ) so that made the light hangover totally worth it. Can I ask … how do we know if we need dialators? Does the doctor tell you when you have your 6 week check up? I’m so glad you’re feeling a bit better too and please keeping me updated. Xxx