Light at the end of a very dark tunnel

Hi Irene, yes I feel like I’ve turned a corner but like you say I need to take it a bit easier as I actually mopped my downstairs this morning and I’m totally goosed now!! So back to bed and see what other crap is on tv. I’m actually getting a hit of an appetite back too unfortunately, can see the weight I’ve lost just trying to come back onboard, but hey ho that’s the least of my worries. Take care Irene and thanks for replying xxx

Hi..good for you on celebrating with your vino..oh a good night's sleep sounds flippin amazing..

Re the dilators 

during my treatment-Each week on a Monday I saw the oncologist after my radiotherapy. 

On week 5 of my treatment I also saw a nurse who walked me through how to start using the dilators..the ones the hospital give you are plastic..so I invested in some softer silicone ones and some water based lubricant..im not going to start using these until I'm all healed through..

I think all women are offered these to help train opening up the vagina and cervix area.. did your treatment team not offer you these ? 

Maybe reach out to your treatment team for a little advice or like you say wait until your 6 week check to ask..

Xx

Hi and no I wasn’t given any advice during treatment I was informed of them at the beginning. Tbh I only saw a doctor twice during the treatment and only examined once. Yes think I will save exciting prospect for my 6 week check up lol. It’s just so glamour this anal cancer isn’t it xxx

Oh dear that's not good.. 

Yes save your chat fir your 6 week check up.. it will be about then when I start to use them..im not even sure I will be able to find a place to put the dilator as everything looks so swollen and bruised..

I keep thinking it will be a bit like when I was 11 and tried to use a tampon for the first time..I used to come out of that bathroom covered I  sweat and admitting defeat as to not being able to insert all the way..

Oh the joys if AC  

X

Ohh that made me giggle!!! And yes like you I would struggle as to find where!! Well let me know when you find the jewel in the crown after your expedition xx

Hi Maljay , I love the fact that you’ve ’turned that corner’ & especially that you’re getting your sense of humour back, oh & that you’ve resumed the plucking  

The benefit system is a real head wobble isn’t it? My eldest daughter has additional needs & I've navigated the benefit system for 30 odd years on her behalf but it still boggles my brain even now! How some people swindle benefits I’ll never know, it must be easier to have a job surely! 

I hope you can soon get off the puppy pads & back onto the bare bedsheets, what a treat that’ll be eh? 

Sending lots of healing vibes your way, 

Nicola 

Ohhh thank you Nicola, it’s just so nice just to feel a little bit of the old me!!! Obvs got a way to go yet ( including bare bedsheets) ohh the thought is heaven. And thank you for the healing vibes,  could you also send me some stretching ones too because the next step doesn’t sound so exciting lol xxx 

Bucket loads of stretching vibes on their way Maljay