Hello everyone,
I'm struggling a bit with Covid life. I was diagnosed with anal cancer during lockdown, in April 2020, and had 5.5 weeks of radiotherapy from June to July. I didn't work from March to October because of Covid. I went back to work in October and had to quit my job on the second day due to extreme stress, almost a panic attack, I had muscle spasms which brought me to my knees because they were so painful. Theyve lasted four days and still ongoing, but dulled a little now, as I've started antidepressants. I can't bear wearing a mask all day and being close to so many strangers. I was working in a shop. Radiotherapy left me feeling claustrophobic. Im now a nervous wreck, and I'm normally a very confident and chatty, forthright person.
Does anyone else feel different since having treatment? Is anyone feeling the stress of life now with Covid? I feel as though I want to run away somewhere. But Covid has shut all the doors on family, friends etc.
Oh yes I hear you. I finished 5 weeks treatment in early feb this year. Then the shutdown. I'm semi retired and self employed but still really struggled. When I was finally feeling like getting out....I scheduled a week long women only hike on the applachian trail. But one of my twin sons (23) broke his damn arm in 3 places on his motorcycle the week before my trip!!!!! So trip canceled and nursed him instead. Sometimes it seems so hard to catch a break. Which seems ironic! I do hear you and send you sincere good thoughts.
It was to have been 50 miles over 5 days. Most days between 8 and 13 miles. All women. I traveled and hiked the grand canyon 3 years ago with this group. We went to havasupai Indian reservation also. The group is called Adventures in good company. Look them up!!
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