Hi gang
I talked to my today oncologist about the scan on Tuesday and it’s not good news.
The tumours in my lungs are growing and there’s a new growth in the liver.
They think the pain I’m in is caused by growth in the cancer around my kidney. It’s now pressing on a nerve and this (rather than the spine tumour which was last week’s theory) would also explain the numbness in the skin on my thigh.
The team has proposed radiotherapy to the kidney tumour with the aim of giving me some pain control. They (and I) think this is the top priority.
Beyond that UCLH has no useful trials to offer so my oncologist is contacting Barts, Guys and the Marsden to see if they have anything.
Sorry to bring bad news but I know you like to know.
I’ve been in appalling pain for a few days now and the hospice nurses have been great. I’m now on stronger pain killers to try to bring the pain under control. I’m hoping the next 24 hours will see some change because frankly I can’t go on like this.
It’s been frightening how quickly I’ve deteriorated. On Monday I was walking the dog. Ok I was struggling but I did it. Today I’ve been in too much pain to stand long enough to cook dinner. I guess it takes only a small amount of growth to go from not pressing on a nerve to pressing on a nerve.
It feels like I’ve crossed a rubicon here. I’m no longer treatable but not curable. Now it’s the palliative phase. It’s a lot to take in. There have been tears here, from both me and my daughter
Xxx
Daloni, you weren't supposed to reply! However, if it has put a smile on your face, that's good to hear, really really good
I'll send a photo of both of them later, maybe in the gardening thread. Or maybe here, we'll see
Tvman xx
Hi
Hopefully below should be my Malus flowering and my Japanese Cherry Tree in flower also. If I had taken the photos earlier in the day the sun wouldn't have been behind the trees but of course the sun wasn't shining earlier. Beside the Japanese Cherry Tree is a giant Chusan, or Chinese Palm. That tree reminds me of my deceased mum because she was in the car when I bought it and it fitted into the boot of the car. My wife and I had picked her up in Belfast to take her down to ours for a few days. It's about 30 years old and sheltered from the north wind by shrubs which is how it has done so well. Hope you enjoy them
Tvman xx
