Opting to go to hospice

You're in my thoughts Tessa

Tvman

You will be in m thoughts.

Ellie xx

"You Never Walk A One"

Thinking of you Tessa

tamencio

Palliative care doctor had interesting take on my bag full of drugs that I brought in. She felt that most were putting a strain on my system with little benefit. As I'm no longer in the community I dont need all the preventative stuff, just the few things that treat current symptoms. So maybe I will actually feel better for a while. Lovely food so far and I can get snacks all day. That's such a relief when I cant eat big main meals.

Tessa

Dearest tessa

thinking of you today and in the future days ,hope all these snacks are delicious 

positive thoughts 

janet

xxxx

Hi Tessa 

Good food, a doctor who looks at you as a whole person and, I bet, kind nurses too. I really hope you do feel better for a while. I imagine the sense of feeling safe and cared for will be enough to allow you to relax. I can stop worrying about you too. Phew ! 

xxx

Hi Tessa

I have had a lovely message via the community champs group to say your friends in the AML and SCL groups are asking after you and want to send their love. I have asked my fellow champ Mike TheHighlander to give me their names so I can pass on their thoughts and best wishes to you with some more details but please know that it's not just us incorrigibles who are holding you in our thoughts. Will you mind if I send a message back to say you're in the hospice? 

I hope you are still snacking and that the change in drugs is helping you feel more comfortable. 

Lots of love

xxx

Hi Tessa

Here's a message for you: 

Mike Thehighlander asked me to send you a big ((hug)) from all the folks you know in both the AML and SCT groups - you know who they all are as they have walked with you during the early days of your treatment journey. They just want to send their love and prayers to you during this time xx

Dear Tessa

when the snowdrops come I shall think of you. I’m so glad that I joined this community and got to know you. Please imagine me giving you a gentle hug too. I felt like I understand you more because we live alone. I shown my mum your snowdrops, she loves them. I hope I deal with my end of time with the same dignity as you. Johnty understands your blood cancer and it was a shock to realise how quick both of you could go. But like you, I’m not having anymore treatment, I’m letting nature take its natural course. I wish I could give you one of my paintings but I can’t. Thinking of you always.

Many thanks. I have been thinking of the SCT group as they were so supportive but didnt want to post on that group in case it scared the people still on the early path of their journey. I think we should believe we can have a good outcome, while still preparing for the worst. If the worst seems likely, best to accept. Panic and stress doesnt help anyone. I often lost patience with people who were being hysterical and insisting on unrealistic reassurance. Of course we cant stay calm all the time and I was really scared of dying on my own.

A friend brought a little pot of snowdrops today so I can have on my windowsill.

Thanks for all your love, this wretched illness brings together complete strangers many miles apart.

Tessa