Hello all,
Reluctant newbie here, I’m writing as a very good friend of mine has metastic liver cancer diagnosed 8 weeks ago. This cancer is super aggressive and initial positive thoughts about potentially having years have in the last week due to bad bloods, scans and 1st line treatment failure moved to potentially weeks and months.
My friend is in hospital and though generally a positive person this is breaking her spirit a little. I cannot connect to the reality of the situation I can take everything in and explain it and support her, but I feel numb to everything. When I first heard her news I went to the sauna and cycled through intense hot and cold just to feel something.
My dad died 3 years ago after a long illness with early onset dementia and I am being triggered a lot. I have also just moved to Spain so am juxtaposed with new and exciting experiences but feel a level of guilt.
I am flying to the Uk on Monday and going straight to the hospital. I cannot fully comprehend that my friend will not be in my life for much longer. I feel bad for all the pain she is enduring and the effect this will have on her children and husband and family.
I know this is my friend and her story and there are many like this on this forum. It’s simply not fair and I wish she didn’t have to go through this.
This is not a specific question or ask I just wanted a space to share this with strangers.
Firstly I’m so sorry to read about your friend’s diagnosis, im sure right now, you coming to see her is all that she needs. A good friend is hard to find and I’m sure she will appreciate you making the journey over to see her. Maybe she will open up on how she is feeling and you being there to listen is more than enough whilst she processes everything. Good luck 
