Having a bad day

Nothing is easy. So hard for you all. What can I say. Are yr ailments subsiding? Dad ok with yr sister. Dont blame him for being confused. Blocking it all out I expect bless him. Fuck its shit. Im sorry x

It is shit as you've already experienced. 

He's toxic as didn't dialyse plus chest infection dialysis tomorrow.  Sis has her friend there too for a few hours. She said hers is a cold has no cough.

I've improved but feel terrible don't know if stress solely or getting over flu am coughing a lot.

Hope sleep comes later.

Sorry know we all on here are in the midst of awful things.

Jx

J can't offer anything but a viral hug it is so shit it really is xx

Oh Jenny, it is so shit!

Sending you love and hugs. X

Hi, 

Everyone has said it, shit times, you feel so helpless I know.

Hope you managed some rest and your dad is okay and also gets to see your mum. 

Squeezing and holding your hand.

Big hug x

Hi All,

Jenny, I really hope you're feeling a bit better now. As everyone is saying, It's SHIT!!!!!

I haven't posted as I've had a shit week. I've been close to tears a lot. I'm missing my Alan, but at the same time am so resentful of all his mess I have to sort out. His brother has been saying he'll sort the clearance company out for nearly 2 weeks now. If he hasn't been in touch by Monday I'm going to make my own arrangements. I emailed all the family to ask if anyone wanted any ashes, & to let me know by Tuesday just gone. I had 3 replies. His son, his Daughter-in-law & his only Grandson. All of whom said No! The others couldn't even be bothered to reply!! I went to the funeral home Wednesday to arrange 3 "scatter pots". One for taking to Donington race circuit, Alan's favourite track & doing a track day there on his bike was the last time he rode a motorbike, one for his brother to scatter ashes art their late sisters grave, & one for me to take to Mallorca where we loved holidaying. The funeral home are also doing the associated Customs paperwork for that as I'll be transporting human ashes by air. 

Even if I don't post I'm reading your posts & thinking about you all a lot. 

This fuckwit disease is NOT going to break my spirit!! I won't let it, and I pray that it won't break any of your spirits.

BIG Virtual Hugs

Sue 

Xx

Mum said "I just want to get better" today...

Wish I could take it away from her.

We couldn't tell dad exactly how bad she is as when we were told incorrectly yesterday that she was sitting up he perked up a bit.  He's quite ill we need him to improve before he can see her. It's a risk but he's coughing so much. They seem tied to each other she gets worse so does he...

Palliative team are allowing mums difficult breathing while there's a chance she can expel the infection if the ct shows this to be fruitless they will give her something to dry her chest up and she will be near death.

I don't know which it will be.

She's had enough.

Jx

Oh Jenny, I'm so sorry your mum is so poorly,

it's just so unfair when we all start with such hope and tick all the boxes, that we all have done Everything that we can and beyond what is needed with such love and care

Wishing for everything you wish for. 

Lesley x

Thinking of you Jenny.  Sending you lots of love and big hugs.  X

So painful to read Jenny it's so sad, lots of love xx