Having a bad day

Jenny. This is torture for you all. Its hard to read as sadly understand the really impossible situation ypu are in through love. You are in my thoughts. Although one part of my journey is at an end, its not ended.  I cant explain. Im there as much as i can be x

Sue, this aftermath although that word seems wrong, it feels like it. Its shown some terrible problems in my tiny family. Zero support from family who arent helping organise funeral but tempers when im trying to. Funerals dont just happen! Care and co-ordination and heart required. I have all three. This hasnt brought us together its shattered us. Or rather its now confirmed to me im holding onto a dream which i have to let go of. I so hope mum doesnt know. Too many complaints but no action to do anything different. I asked for us three children to meet to discuss. They didnt want to. Oh i want my mum. She wld have words of wisdom and completely understand me xxx

You are all in my thoughts xx

Maisiemae, in these situations I've realised that everyone shows their true colours. I think you have to accept that this is it with your family. I know that's hard but sometimes you have to accept it and move on. You don't need that hassle in your life. You need time to grieve for your mum without the anger you feel towards your siblings. I know it's easier said than done. I wish I could come and talk to them and make them realise just what they are doing and what they are throwing away. Their pettiness and mean spiritedness are making an already awful situation so much worse. I wish I could come and help you. I'm sending you hugs and hand holding. X

Maisiemae do it the way you or your mum would want. If the others aren't helping.

Mum ate a tiny spoon of food. Her breathing sounds like darth vader still. Her legs are v v swollen..

I have to wear a mask to see her as someone on the ward had flu. 

Dad v weak sister with him.

Jx

Jenny sending you hugs and hand holding too.

X

Hello Jenny,

Just to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts. Bad enough to deal with if you weren't feeling so poorly yourself.

Take care, Anneteresa

Thankyou Elenium. Ive written the eulogy, with heart, with truth but not too much. Brother refuses to read it or partake. sister said it shld take no more than 1 minute. Fuckwits. My mums life will take 6 minutes. A bit long but i dont care. It is their loss in more ways than one. Im a decent kind human being, just want the best for mums departure. I will be reading in front of about 70 people in a small hall on my own! I just want mum to be happy with everything.

1 minute! I'm livid on your behalf (and your mum's). You're right, fuckwits! I think you're very brave. Your mum would be happy with anything you do because you always do the best for her.

Sorry maisiemae but they just need to fuck right off!

Thanks Elenium and jenny. Like all of us, we have to fight for our loved ones as they have a bigger battle on their hands. Mum is my hero. She always will be. Things happened which i cant share on here. Im dreading the funeral. But equally i need to stop dragging myself through mud, the mud isnt of my making x