Having a bad day

I wondered that too but mum would be devastated. Part of me thinks what will be will be. Sue was right, self destruct. Im not doing very well, lost my mum, a sister and niece not talking to me, potentially my bro inside. Just hope he doesnt do anything crazier, he wants to be with mum.... That really woukd make me cray cray crazy! X

Oh bloody hell maisiemae, just what you don't need.  Have you managed to speak to him?

I hope it all gets sorted out. 

Am holding your hand tonight, honey.

X

Oh maisiemae I really don't know what to say so all I can do is keep reading and listening to you and send my love and best wishes

Hope you are all ok out there I keep reading and my heart goes out to you all 

Diziet Sma. Thankyou. I did ask some of these questions of custody desk. What has happened i predicted and had a long conversation long conversation last week (as did mum days before she passed) cant say word dxxd yet. I am a very very long wzy from him at the moment. I cant and wont turn my back where most others have. Offered for him to be bailed (if charged) to mine. Just hoping we hear soon outcome of interview. I told them to watch as his mental state is fragile (very). So much for blustery walks and no worry weekend! X

You've done everything you can Maisiemae.

Jx

I hope everyone managed to get some rest last night. Notice I didn't put sleep? Sleep eludes us all a lot at the moment. I was reading till gone 3! I do that when I'm scared to sleep in case I have the recurring dream of Alans last days. I use a sleep pillow spray but may have a tablet tonight. I've got the lowest dose of Zopiclone, & find that if I cut it in half with a sharp blade I don't get the hangover the next day.

Yantibee,  I so hope you & your boys got through Friday. 

Maisiemae, meeting up can work for me if you have to come up. If you do we can pm details phone numbers etc. Alans stuff is slowing down now. Apart from going up there later to check the freezers ok I don't need to do much more. It's so bad there I can't even go through his clothes. I have some here, & I've already put anything I want to keep from them. When is your Mum's funeral. As we did for Yantibee is there a colour you'd like us to wear on the day. I'll be proud to do so. 

I sent an email to the rest of the family on Friday saying I'll be collecting Alans ashes later this week,  & could they let me know by Tuesday if they want any. I know his brother does. Their sister died when she was 21 in an accident & Steve wants to put some of Alans ashes with Mary. Wimpy son & only grandson don't want any. Waiting to hear from grasping granddaughters.

Jenny I hope your chest is feeling better. 

Hugs to everyone,  

Sue xx

Coughed all night. Dad and I up at 2 am getting warm drinks. He's v anxious and cried this morning; he beats himself up about crying. 

My skin hurts my head pounding so think it's flu. Had to call sis in. Am now at mine. Mum may come home this pm.

Sis v grumpy as her weekend curtailed.  I understand but I can't be there...need to get well and not to give this to mum.

Not seen mum since Thursday when she was traumatic to see...want that memory expunged.

Was v short with annoying aunt.

Am not popular. .too germ ridden to care.

Hugs from germ safe distance to all.

Jx

Rest up. Yr sister isnt normally there 24/7 so im sure she can manage for a few days or can dad go for respite? Keep warm. Lots of fluids. Get better. Louise Hay would have a theory in yr ailments but dont have book here. Brother being bailed to my house so now have that worry, in my house. There will be rules! X

No one to provide dad respite that I know of he has no continuing care. Mum discharged but needs transfusion seems barmy to me. Sister panicking but is with mum.

Am shivery and ache headache and coughing ugh..can't do anything from here but advise...

Jx