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Elenium
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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Ta. Feeding dad then crashing. Jx

  • in reply to FormerMember

    I was just wiping mum's hands and realised that she is literally skin and bones. Bloody shitty cancer!

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Mum is too. Her legs hardly make a shape on the bed.

    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Dear god what next. My brother has been arrested. He is carrying mum and doing Eulogy with me. He is an idiot, i love him. Mum told him not to get into trouble. Why now. As my sister wont speak to him (nor me now) its me who will need to sort his mess, again. I dont understand how our brains are wited so differently. Now im worried that his crazy ex will come to my door. I live an honest life, i do the right thing. Im not sure i can take any more pressure. Im sorry not exactly related x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Elenium and Jenny - thanks for being there x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Not what you need at all can anyone else help?

    Hug.


    Jx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yes my partner will. But i so wanted my brother and i to do. Lovely as ive now got 3 friends travelling across country to mums funeral. They loved my mum and talked to her over the years - brother suicidal wants to be with mum. Give me a sleeping tablet! Hope you feel better tomorrow jenny x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Oh Maisiemae, WTF??? 

    Your brother almost seems to be in self destruct mode!! And IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!!! I guess I'd be doing the same thing in your shoes, fixing his mess! Although I'd like to scream at him " Fix your own mess!" 

    My Heart breaks for you Sweetheart.

    Hugs 

    Sue xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Oh Sue its not the first time. Just really really bad timing or maybe mum knew she said dont get into trouble, not that he listens. He was beautiful with mum un her last days. She never xlosed a door on him. He is very close to you of course. I may need to come to Coventry to sort his cars. If i do maybe we could have a coffee if you arent sorting your own things (or rather Alans). Im rubbish, i cant turn a blind eye. Normally mum and i would be on the phone now bereft at his mess. Btw not super dreadful just not right. Oh really not now. Really not now xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    As it's his mum's funeral would he be allowed to attend with an officer?

    Jx

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