Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
Maisiemae, I'm giving you a big hug. I'd gladly give a piece of my heart to help heal yours and Yantibee's. I'm glad the Sound of Music CD is helping you feel closer to your mum. She is always with you though.
Elenium
Hi Elenium. Â I'm coughing. Â Avoided hospital today. Â Sister went and I phoned the doc. Â Mum has pneumonia but will be out tomorrow if she copes with no oxygen. Â I feel horrid hope am better tomorrow to cope with her.
She may not be out though.
Sister said the ward less scary today.
I asked about the vomiting blood. They said they're not worried if it's bright red and it's not happened since.
I will go tomorrow to visit as dropping dad to dialysis. She may not be out tomorrow anyway.
Jx
Eidelweiss gets me every time! Jenny, dont get the bad cough strain going around. Hope mum comes home if you feel she is ready. Elenium how is mum in the home? Muns husband in a salvation army run home. Its beautifully run and super clean. Very impressive. He is there for respite but cant go home. 2ndhand curved stairlift being dumped, bespoke curve has no value. Shame. Got to clear mums house. Its going to be hard although its not where i was bought up. Best to you Sue (mum and i have been sorting paperwork etc over the past year). Thats not meant to sound smug. Id love to help clear Alans. Xxxx
Am upset got bad cough. Can't visit mum.
She may come out today so phoned sister can she come here. She has hangover so grumpy. Â Said coming if mum coming out otherwise will take over tomorrow.Â
Think I got it in hospital.Â
Dad has to fend for self. Has dialysis. Â Says he should look after me. V sweet but he can't.Â
So now we wait. If ward wasn't grotty I'd be happy for her to stay in.
I feel vile.Â
Jx
That's a shame about the stairlift maisiemae, would have been nice if someone else could have used it. Â Glad the home is good. Â Now you don't have to worry. Â
Jenny perhaps if you dose yourself up you'll feel better by tomorrow?? Â When I've got a cold/cough I always have brandy, hot orange and honey. Â Knocks me out (because I don't drink) but usually feel much better the next day. Â Your dad sounds like a sweetheart.
Mum is more awake now. Â I think it's because they've taken her off the MST tablets and put her on patches. Â More like her old self. Â She says most of the carers are nice and she has a laugh and a joke with them, but a couple are a bit rough and abrupt. Â One of them told me that she loves my mum. Â :-).Â
Mum's not really eating or drinking now but I gave her a chicken cuppa soup for lunch and she drank almost all of it and she drank all of the cup of tea I made her earlier. So that's good. Â She can't chew and her mouth is sore so she just wants soft stuff now. Â She's told me she wants sponge pudding and custard and I better go and get her some... Â Definitely more like her old self, telling me what to do. Â Made me laugh.
Now she's got the plaster off she can use her mobile again so she rang my (good) sister earlier. Â Made them both feel better. Â Now mum can ring us in the evening if she's fed up.
Hugs to all. X
Elenium
I know it's not nice for your mum to be in hospital but you need the break. Â Hopefully you'll feel better tomorrow.
X
Elenium
That's atrocious! Â
Try and get some rest. Â Hope you feel better soon.
X
Elenium
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