Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
A and E with mum again. Possible sepsis.Â
Jx
Hi All,
Firstly, yantibee Purple will be worn tomorrow. Jenny, I hope you can get the washer fixed.
I've not been on here because I'm TRYING to get Alan's flat a bit more hygienic! On Monday I tackled the fridge!! Shock Horror!! I'd bought some of those face masks you use when you're painting. Boy was I glad!! Apart from 3 or 4 days he hadn't been there since June!!! Some of the stuff I couldn't & didn't want to identify!! Yesterday was spent sorting a problem with his car. Then today I've been up at his & got the freezer defrosted, emptied & cleaned. I also got rid of mounds of recycling & blown tins of food. As you know he was a hoarder. The oldest use by date I've found so far is 1999!!!!! Â I jumped straight in the shower when I got home.
I'm having tomorrow for me. I've got an Indian Head Massage booked where I usually go.
I've been reading everyone's posts & even if I don't post for a few days please know that you're all constantly in my thoughts.
It's snowing here in Coventry at the moment but the sky looks so leaden it's not even nice enough to watch.
Yantibee I hope that you can say Goodbye to your beautiful Jill.
Maisiemae I agree with the others about the fuckwit tutters. Let 'em all take a running jump as my Mum used to say.
Hugs to All
Sue xx
Still in hospital. Awaiting a bed. Is in temporary bed.
Been here 9 hours.
Infection possible pneumonia possible virus.Â
Jx
Oh Jenny. Bad but good if they can nip it! Is dad ok? Thinking of you and really understand x
Yantibee. Will be thinking of you tonight as big day tomorrow. Just go for it however you feel whatever you want be or say. Even the FWs albeit limited, unlike us, are there because they loved in a different way, in their limited way. Random: had toenails done as a treat, had to choose colour, why, plum will do nicely. I have plum toenails. Jill. Fly with the angels and be with my mum, you will love each other xxxx
Dad home alone hope he's OK. Â Sis came with a drug I forgot. He texted he ate a doughnut.
Still waiting. Mum vomited blood earlier. New for her.
Yantibee in my thoughts tomorrow.Â
Jx
Home now. Felt terrible leaving her there. She's on geriatric ward as the only isolation room available. It smelled of wee and nurse was grumpy.
Hope she's OK.Â
Jx
Bless your mum and of course not easy leaving her there. Sometimes hospital is the only place for them to be though. Sleep well as its exhausting even waiting for 9 hours plus! X
Ta. Know you've been here already before me.
Heartache.
Jx
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