Having a bad day

Dear Maisiemae, i have been following this thread and am so so sorry for your loss, My Dad too passed just before i got to him and i think he wanted it that way, Take comfort in the fact that you did everything possible to fullfill your Mum's last wishes. Please look after yourself as you will need strength for the coming days/weeks. Lynn 2 xxx

Maisiemae, Yantibee, Elenium, Sue and all.

Thinking of you all tonight.

Jx

Jenny and all. I sort of love you all for listening and reading and supporting and most of all understanding. Ive bared my soul at times. X

Most of the time in the midst of things it's the only place to say the stuff nobody else can handle hearing..in my opinion. 

But Maisiemae if you need not to be on here at anytime that's OK too.

Hug..

Jxxx

Having a difficult day today.  Feel so sad for all of us.

Mum sleeps most of the time now and is quite confused when she is awake.

I'm back to work tomorrow and have this terrible feeling that something is going to happen and I won't be able to get to mum in time.

Thinking of everyone tonight.

Hugs to all. X

Hope we all get some sleep or at least rest.

Didn't say before Mum has another infection and more antibiotics is stuck in her room. Am getting a stair lift.  Hope she can get in it.

Night all...for now.

Jx

Thinking of you all, still reading all the posts, still heartbroken for us all

Registrar done and funeral booked and details finalised.... rough days. Can't believe she is gone x

I can only imagine it must feel surreal Yantibee. 

Hope you get some rest this night.

Jx

Yantibee - the time feels wretched in a different way for me.  We cant please nor nurture our loved one, my raison d'etre has gone. Maybe we can eventually self care and see that we also deserve love and care. I feel very numb and unless words said to me are real they annoy me. Playing lip service. Also offering to help now infuriates me. Now is too late. Now takes away from my months of dedicated, loving, thoughtful, stomach churning sickness. Ive sobbed and sobbed. Also feel mummy and i mourned together. I may post less (who knows) but i feel i want some continuity and my friends here just know and i dont want to do any explaining. Mum went through horrors the last 4 days. It will haunt me. It will make me feel sick for the rest of my life. Love and respect x

Maisiemae help now? Ffs!! 

Do what you need now...other people's agendas are meaningless.  

So sorry your Mum had horrors in the last days. Wish I could take that away from your memories.  However you were there then, her constant, she knew this before she went.

Keep warm in the cold. Look after you.  Let the dogs help.

Jx