Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
MaisiemaeÂ
How are things?
I meant to say three days respite might be available in new year bur only for mum care not both...
AUNT IS VISITING MUM TODAY not told her she's in bed whole time.
Jx
Thanks guys.
We complained this morning and then the palliative care nurse complained too and said if they don't sort it out she won't be recommending them anymore. Â Anyway, they are moving mum to a new room. Â We've had a look and it's loads better than the current one. Â It's much brighter. Â This one is a dingy brown colour (mum hates brown!) Â They given it a deep clean and she'll be moving in there this afternoon. Â We're going to get her big TV and armchair and bring them in.
I hope she'll be happier. Â I feel a bit better now.
How are things Jenny, Maisiemae and Sue?
Elenium
That sounds better. Good you were there too.
Squeakiest wheel always a good idea.
Aunt and Uncle here.
Got mums drugs from hospital. Nurses were giving presents.Â
Mum OK ...aunt shocked she's not coming down stairs.Â
Dad missing out as at dialysis.
Jx
Hi Elenium I'm not bad. I'm finding the closer to Christmas we're getting the more I'm missing Alan. It feels weird not to have presents to wrap for him. He was always in charge of Christmas dinner, he was a very good cook. He'd go down to Sainsburys about 4pm Christmas Eve and find us a lovely bargain in the way of meat.Â
I'm picking my friend Gill up tomorrow from her church to come to mine for the day. She has no family so would be on her own.Â
I hope the new room is better for your Mum.Â
Maisiemae & Jenny, & and anyone else who follows our ramblings on here, I hope tomorrow isn't too difficult or painful for you all.
Love Sue xx
What did Auntie expect?! Mum sliding down the Bannister!!
Hope Sue.
I think your day with friend sounds good. I know it's sad too. Raise a glass or two to Alan.
I will too.
Hoping all peaceful and calm tomorrow for everyone...
Hugs.
Jx
Meant hi not hope!!!! No gin yet either! Jx
Uh Oh!! I may hit the Baileys  a bit later!!
Xx
Best wishes for a day of peace to you all for tomorrow. X
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