Having a bad day

Back home Mum OK but Dad bad...bleeding hell. ..

Nausea etc.

Shop good I love the ballet. Mum and I watched the Nutcracker on DVD last week. 

Sweating is horrible isn't it mum gets that a lot don't know what it is...

Nearly time for carols.

Jx

Well ladies it happened. The band played and the neighbours came - mum sang from her bed. It was magical. X

Mum says she doesn't want to send out Christmas cards.  When I told her that my daughter was going to come round at the weekend to put her tree up she said she was going to leave it this year.  That's so sad.  I could have cried.  I told her she was having the tree up whether she likes it or not.

I sang Silent Night at 8.30 and thought of you all.  I hope the carols were lovely. 

How amazing that the magic happened..a Christmas miracle. 

Hopefully a peaceful night tonight.

Elenium Mum said the same but sister and I secretly decorated this evening.  I'll get a tree tomorrow.  None of us really feeling it but we want to try.

Knackered now!

Love to all.

Jx

It was 15 mins of magic. Some neighbours and i sang at the top of our voices with the 7 strong Sally Army band, the drive was lit with candles. Mum sat in bed holding her husbands hand and sang too. The door and window open so we had the same air. I cried. We videoed it best we could in the dark. And, at 830 we sang Silent Night (fluke on timing). Somehow that Carol will bond us forever more. Not sure why exactly. You get it. Thankyou. Decorations? Hmm not really crossed my mind but im sticking cards on mums bedroom door so she can see them. Ballet. Bolshoi Swan Lake, beautiful. Swan Lake everytime. Not bad considering im a bit of a hippie rock chick. Beauty is beauty. Mum looked beautiful this evening. Home in less than 4 hours. Night all (Dixon of Dock Green?) x

Jenny

Yr mum and dad. I do know that but really, you are a marvel x

On way to work now.  Feeling nervous about mum.  I know she'll have the carers in most of the day but feel mean that it's not one of her children there. (Not that the others care.) Although at least one of her grandchildren will be with her for a couple of hours tonight. 

I'm so glad the carols went well maisiemae and your mum enjoyed them.

Got a feeling I might be doing some hiding in the toilet today...

Hugs to all.

Try not to worry Elenium....well yes I know that's impossible. .. she has the carers you can phone her too and your daughter is going..

I guess I really mean you will worry but go out anyway ...do both ....hopefully carers will be lovely. 

I bought some handknitted Christmas stockings at hospice yesterday sold to raise money.  My friend who now lives in Spain and knows about Mum had knitted some of them with her friend and sent them over.

Maisiemae that is so lovely I keep thinking about it.

Sigh Mum and Dad.....mums health is on first appearance the worst weak cant walk etc and palliative care now no idea what time she has but Dad (a bit more able can shower himself but not cook clean or shop) having dialysis and prostate cancer in remission and bad arthritis is at risk really of going downhill at any time heart under pressure from dialysis etc. Helping them feels a bit like carrying skittles on a tray whilst on a roller coaster. ..precarious. 

Hospital bed being removed today as mum can't sleep on it.... I liked the fact it sat her up but useless if she can't sleep. ..

Maisiemae driving so long are you OK? 

Ps try Avram Khan's version of Giselle. ...dramatic scary. Nor sure if available on dvd or download yet.

Hugs to all.

Jx

I've rung mum and she sounds quite perky. Her cousin rang to ask if she can go visit and mum said yes. So that's good. Mum wants my sister to ring her later too. Feeling a bit better now.

Bed removal a no go... Monday now mum grumpy. 

Christmas tree delivered same time as mum had massive commode session....