Having a bad day

Eminem,

Totally understandable about your concerns for your sister given the problems with your Dear Mum.

This Crap disease becomes our point of reference!!

I know it's great for Cystitis but I wonder if Cranberry juice might help your Mum. That's if she can tolerate it poor lady.

Jenny, I too hope your knee is better, especially having had the gin, specifically medicinal of course!

Maisiemae, your poor Mum. Losing a much loved furbaby is like losing a human member of your family. And especially now, with your lovely Mum being so poorly. If you hadn't thought of it, maybe get her a small photo frame with a picture of him/her in it. I say small cos then she could have it with her wherever she goes.

Big Hugs to all old & new friends xx

Oh Jenny, I'm getting the most delightful picture of you! Bra tail & moustache included!!! Lol

Xx

Yep that's me ...glamour personified. 

Mum having a not eating at all day.

Dad texted from dialysis he at last has a bed not a chair. At last 4 hours 3 times a week is crippling.

Just a quick warning re cystitis sachets I. E cystopurin or boots own version. My mum only has one kidney now due to cancer so last bladder infection she took these over the counter sachets and her potassium was way too high. So they're great as long as kidney function is normal.

Jx

I'm just on the train in my way home reading all your posts.  Thank you to all those who have suggested things for my mum's infections.  Unfortunately, none of those really help.  Mum has potassium citrate now which is diluted in water and she can drink three times a day.  It helps a bit.  Other than that she is just drinking as much water as possible.  

Some of your posts have made me laugh, so thank you for that.  I really needed it today.

Got my work Christmas do on Friday.  Don't really want to go but they arranged it around me so can't not go, although I think they would understand.  Perhaps I can just have a night off of worry??

Gad your dad has a bed this time Jenny. 

Hugs to everyone. X

If no immediate urgent type thing is happening try to go. ..if need be you can hide in loo for a bit and post on here.

I'll probably be checking in late pm..

..or emptying commode..

Or watching midsummer antiques bargain chef (parents viewing combo ...they merge into one)

Or trying to research comfortable incontinence pants.

My Amazon "suggestions" list has changed a lot these days... no more prosecco flip flops perfume...all toilet raisers, frames, bed sore patches and knee braces...

Zzz

Hug to all.

Jx

Elenium

Thank goodness for your safety place of loosville! The thought of the party is prob worse than the event. Maybe you wont feel quite the same species as everyone else but your body being there and part of your brain will be some respite. Weve got ours this Friday too and im organising it. Via carol service on mums drive (little one) and my friend is making a pretty 'carols by candlelight' thing to stand around a la dancing around a handbag. Mum wont see it though as she is very attached to her bedroom, emotionally and physically. She doesnt want to go downstairs. Hopefully we will all scrub up well enough with my non nookie nookie knotted hair, Sue or Jenny as a man in a bank with a bra. Just a mini makeover and we are all princesses of the world of  caring, scrubbing and loving. To me perfume is a Domestos aroma with a hint of wet wipes. And, i dont give a damn xxxx

Switzerland is a brave choice. Chemo is a brave choice. Im quite sure, as one cant help but worry/think ....that i would just run away,,,. With my girl woofers, tweezers and a hairbrush for All three of us (partner now bald after 25 years with me!), random thought, cant sell cornish cottage if mums ashes are scattered in our fairy woods and i cant chuck partner as he loves my mum and she him (most of the time). Realise i sound flippant but they really are considerations. I want to radically change my life. Do i really want to stay as i am, yo yo dieting with wrong reason for tousled hair? This has conjoured so many questions and my mind sounds like a full of coins  jukebox. Its relentless. Oh my hair has dramatucally thinned due to stress and menopause rumblings. Mum is so wise. Selfishly who will see me through lifes events. Mum says i can always talk to her wherever she is after this life. I cant stop whats going to happen but i want to press the pause button. Hold mums habd and just sit. Back into being with mum tomorrow night. I miss her. Sorry for ramblings of a mad old goat and hope all have a reasonable night. Thankyou really thankyou. Mad old goat in the bath crying and typing xxx o

Oh sod them all sue! Daft old bat i am, kept rereading and didnt click then the penny dropped. Indeed - sod them all just not those who have mainly unwavering stoic presence and action. Us lot!

Stephen - what a wonderful open self disclosure you have written. Have thought before that within this community EVERYONE has their own story, and it is born of the wretchedness that is Cancer. Within that storybook are chapters of love, pain, fear, learning, sacrifice, patience,loneliness, hope, doubt.... what a book! That book is our own book for each person to know but you cant unknow, that is what is haunting me. Ive changed shape forever. May your writings help heal you and others x

Maisiemae thank you. Your posts really made me laugh!!

As to your whirring thoughts in your head....no need to decide all of everything now....it's all too much.

Ps also menopausal....the eagle landed this weekend in time for boyfriend not had an eagle land for 3 months!!!

I'm sorting mums banking tomorrow. ..fun fun fun.

Jx