Having a bad day

I love the hydrangea idea

I understand about the feeling you had when clearing your Mum's stuff.  It's only her clothes here (her sewing stuff later) and only my sister and I doing it.  I want it to be a little more careful about it than she is.

I know it's not logical. 

The music is 'Fantasie on a theme of Thomas tallis'. We put a small radio in mum's room as it was so noisy in there sometimes.  I was there one evening and the rain poured down the window, the wind was howling, I could hear Mums breathing she was asleep. ..it was very peaceful and a rarity. ..this music was playing. ..I love it now

Jx

When we were sorting out mum's stuff I found a necklace that my dad gave her before they were married.  When I was a child I loved it because it's sparkles.  It's made of crystal beads.  I have decided to keep it.  I was showing it to my daughter when I realised there was something underneath the lining of the box.  It was the card my dad wrote to my mum when he gave her the necklace.  It was so beautiful and romatic that I sobbed when I read it.  They loved each other so much I really do hope they are together now.

That's magical Elenium. What a find!

Jx

(Feeling low glad you posted that).

Oh Elenium. Thats v special. I hope they are too x

A friend and neighbour who has not long lost her mum is doing a 365 days of finding something each day to be grateful for to bring positivity back into her life... Last nights was she heard at a classical concert (not her thing but took her dad), Vaughn ... Jen the one you like and i forget the piece but thats it will need to hear this person/composer? 

'The Lark Ascending'

Oh that's beautiful too. Try it on YouTube 

This is the one that I heard that time in hospital starts slow but moves me: Fantasie on a theme of Thomas Tallis by Vaughan Williams 

(I'm not big on knowing classical music either)

When you get time try them.

Lark ascending is very uplifting.  Thomas Tallis is peaceful and a little sad. Think rain pouring down the hospital window with mum asleep and both of us left alone at last..for just that piece of music. .

Jx

Oh knob off marks and Spencer with your mother's day emails. ...

Bought a rose and planted it hope it grows...

Everywhere youi look there's adverts for mothers day.  I've been inundated with offers of special meals, events, etc.  Can't bear it!

Completed probate application and IHT exemption forms today at last. As printer copier finally arrived. 

Will send tomorrow.  Sorting Mum's property out will be a while off and emptying it after sale will be gruelling. So wish dialysis wasn't in the way.

Succumbed to prosecco after picking Dad up. He told me he spoke to renal psychologist who suggested grief counselling.  He discussed ending dialysis with her and said he had enough tablets to get him out of the way so that we can live our lives.  All this discussed on way back. I told him that would be awful for us and stopping dialysis only to be considered if it is too awful for him or it doesn't work that him going too would not be getting out of our way!

He seems OK now. He says doesn't need grief counselling! 

Tomorrow I have project for him to start in garden if he's OK. 

He only likes one of mums friends and doesn't like old people's clubs. How will he cope when alone....luckily a long way off yet.

End of ramble...must be the booze.

Mad cat is back.

Hope everyone surviving?

Jx