Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. She had a major strop. I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. But I feel even worse now. I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hi all.

How are you all doing this pm?

Sorry not been on here much. Probate stuff, collecting original will from odd solicitor, filling inheritance tax stuff daft process... and now Dad has chest infection.

Saw his GP with him today as he's not sleeping. No sleeping tablets possible as he dialyses but antibiotics and he has agreed to seeing the renal psychologist for counselling.

GP phoned dialysis team on speaker phone unknown to them. The sister said "He is such a nice man we're all very fond of him. He's had such an awful time we'll do anything to help him. Our psychologist will happily see him too if he would like". It was good for Dad to hear this.

We all three had coffee out today. Something not possible for a long time as Mum or he couldn't be left alone. Felt nice but sad.

I found Mum's old prescriptions today. This affected me a lot not sure why them in particular.

Hope we sleep tonight.

Night all.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

We all slept! Dad 5 hours.

Bobles2 over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Brilliant!xxx

Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to Bobles2

At the moment I feel. .

I know my Mum is dead...

....but I don't understand my Mum is dead...

Am I losing the plot?

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

J your not losing the plot !! I feel the same I just can't comprehend it all

Broken tonight x

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

I guess it's too big for us to deal with mentally right now?

Did you sleep a bit?

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Im so pleased x

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Everyone is suffering so much. Mine is a deep longing now. For some reason I also cant believe mum has gone despite seeing her gone and carrying her coffin. I dont feel her with me. Is she somewhere else as she believed? Is it so nice that she is happier now? I hope she is. Mum repeatedly said no crying for more than a week. I dont sob all day but i cry daily. Im avoiding sorting her clothes and her bureau. I cant face going into the house but have to, and alone. Im almost (!) wordless.

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Mothers day emails arghhhh

FormerMember over 8 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Mother's Day can knob off

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