Having a bad day

Just had letter from hospice re counselling.  I will take them up on it one to one that is. Will phone tomorrow.  

Mum looked peaceful after death so maybe I should look at that image. As when I saw her then I felt happy for her...not of course that she had gone but that the awful part was over for her.  Need the happy feeling back.

Jx

Jenny, I think that's a good idea on both counts. I have found that counselling has really helped. I've still got three sessions left and I'm glad of them.

X

I was still awake at 2am. That's the time the hospital called me 13 weeks ago. So I laid there trying to conjure up my favourite images of Alan. He always looked happiest if the day included motorbikes or eating, usually both! 

Sue xx

I know the feeling, dad won't speak about his cancer,  just shouts at you if you put a breath out of place, and mum cuts him no slack for the fact he is sick.  I presume it gets better at some point, so I just try to focus on nice things.   Thankfully (or sadly) life didn't work out for me to have kids so I don't have any teenagers in the mix. 

Hopefully knowing you are not alone has helped you through today and you had something nice at some point to smile about.  xx

GS and I have just spent a teary couple of hours choosing the music for the funeral, but it's done now.  I've whatsapped the 'forgivens', hopefully they'll agree.  Well they better, after all me and GS knew her music tastes best.

AlwaysOptimistic, my mum didn't want to talk about it either.  She got snappy and grumpy at times, which was not like her at all.  It's understandable but doesn't make it easy for us.  Coming on here and being able to offload has helped me massively, plus all the dear friends I have made on here.  

Sending you a hug. X

Sue, sending you a huge hug too honey. X

Hi all, had a nice day today which as you will all have experienced is a rarity! Played 18 holes of golf with my eldest just us two so time to chat, a few laughs and a few deeper conversations then went to his house where his partner cooked a lovely Sunday lunch( Jill's favourite meal) then came home to spend early even with youngest and his fiancé . Had to give in now as very tired, work and poor sleep over the past few weeks really catching up now so hope I sleep for more that 3 hours

Goodnight to you all and best wishes for Monday, hope it's a good(ish) day . Classic FM now and hopefully some zzzzzzz 

Hi Yantibee, I'm so glad you've had a good day with your boys today.  You deserve to and Jill would be glad too.

I've had a lovely weekend with GS, we've shopped, reminisced, laughed and cried.  I've just written my letter to go in mum's coffin and got extremely upset but it's done now.  We are meeting with the minister tomorrow so I expect that will be emotional too.  

I don't want to go home because it will hit me all over again.  I have to go past mum's house every day.  There is no way I can avoid it.  Not sure how I'm going to cope when there are new people living in it.  She loved that house so much.

Off to bed now.  Hope I can get some sleep, very tired.

Wishing everyone a restful night.

X

Hello maisiemae,

Hope you have a great time in Norfolk, lots of R & R. I have visited quite often, a little place called South Creake, where do you go? It is lovely, but a bit of a culture shock!

Take care, Anneteresa

pH

Sue x