Having a bad day

Elenium that is still a strange concept but I hope after funeral and will ..things may be easier. The property to market will take time...but yes these are things to plan around as long as Dad stable. 

Planning ahead....my brain will need some adjusting to this..

Jx

Well i personally dont go there that often but you may have seen our beehive! elenium. Im quite sure we will meet, as we said, once all in same position. Sadly we now are. In time my dear lovely friends x

Hello Elenium,

The first step through the door is the hardest. I found some colleagues over compensated on the let's be jolly front and not mention what has happened and also the opposite side of the coin, I feel your pain .... I totally understand that people don't know how to act but they should at least be sensitive/astute enough to  respect your feelings and requests.

You are doing brilliantly, yes toilets are a great safe room, cotton wool pads soaked in cold water help with eye redness and I also have my car at lunch times.

Love to all xx

 Xx 

Thanks Bobles.

Unfortunately the taps in the toilets are only hot.  There is no cold tap.  I think my work colleagues are used to seeing me with swollen eyes and a red nose though.  I don't worry about them seeing me like it anymore.

X

I just want my mum. I would do anything to talk to her. I feel so desparately sad tonight. Cant sleep. Listening to voicemail msgs to get a fix.

Am sure she misses you too and would have given anything to stay here with you.  She couldn't though, she had to go. It's utterly unfair.

Am up too Maisiemae. 

Jx

Dad up at midnight with nausea and now at 2 as too hot and also needs milk.

I just want to sleep with no interruptions.

On a more positive note we booked the celebrant for the funeral. ..we meet her Friday.

Jx

I was up about 2 this morning too.  Don't know what woke me but ended up getting up and wandering round the house.  I'd like to sleep without interruption too.  I miss my mum too, just want to give her a hug.  But I do feel that she's with me. Everytime I go in her house I always say hello and goodbye when I leave.  I tend to talk to her too.  I know it's early days but I still go to pick up the phone or think "I must tell/ask mum about that" and then it hits me all over again.

It's all just strange now isn't it. I talk to Mum too..

Feel like she's just out and will be back. 

Not much sleep!

Jx

Hi all. 

I was awake around 2 am as well. How bizarre.

I'm always talking to Bob, wish him a good morning, say goodbye when I leave for work and say hi I'm home, in the evening when I get back. And that's just for starters, I find it comforting.

Love to all x